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Post by elaine on Dec 21, 2019 3:52:10 GMT
I’m exhausted. And yet one more large responsibility has been dumped in my lap with less than a week before Christmas and Chanukah Sunday night. And this is an very sad one. It makes me question whatever I did so wrong in the universe that I deserve the unrelenting challenges over the past 3 years. It is so hard to keep faith during it all. How do you do it? ****************** Update 12/21 It is a new day, and things look less bleak by the light of day. Matzo balls and cranberry sauce are made and in the fridge. Ingredients for brisket and latkes are ready to go to be prepped and made later on today - we are doing Chanukah a day early because I didn’t check the calendar and bought ds1 Redskins tickets for tomorrow. I’m also planning on getting the corn casserole, sweet potato soufflé and green bean casserole made and into the freezer until Christmas Day. My husband and boys are going to see the ICE show at the National Harbor while I am cooking. Then they are going up to Rockville to pick up my mom and bring her here to spend a couple of days with us and celebrate Chanukah. Thank you for all your kind words and support. I can’t imagine how much harder life would be without you all. You buoy me up regularly. I hope you all know this. (((Hugs))) KelleeM. You are in my thoughts and heart.
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Post by cakediva on Dec 21, 2019 3:54:32 GMT
I don’t have an answer - I got off the faith train a long time ago.
But wanted to send hugs your way.....
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Post by pierkiss on Dec 21, 2019 3:59:39 GMT
I’m so sorry. Big hugs to you, and I’m sending you strength to deal with your new situation.
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Post by idahomom on Dec 21, 2019 4:03:57 GMT
Ditto. I lost all faith on December 23, 1992, the day I watched my infant son die in my arms. Me and many others prayed awfully hard that week.
I hope things ease up for you. The holidays can be stressful enough for some.
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Post by Deleted on Dec 21, 2019 4:07:30 GMT
I’m exhausted. And yet one more large responsibility has been dumped in my lap with less than a week before Christmas and Chanukah Sunday night. And this is an very sad one. It makes me question whatever I did so wrong in the universe that I deserve the unrelenting challenges over the past 3 years. It is so hard to keep faith during it all. How do you do it? I don't have a good answer for this...just wanted to say that you have people here who will listen and you are not alone. (((hugs)))
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Post by cindyupnorth on Dec 21, 2019 4:08:02 GMT
I’m another person that does not believe in the God testing someone. Or not giving you more then you can handle. People DO get more then they handle. I don’t believe god can control things. Why would a god do what he has done to some people? You are your own person..
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Post by revirdsuba99 on Dec 21, 2019 4:08:54 GMT
elaine ((((((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))) idahomom (((((((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))))
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Post by peano on Dec 21, 2019 4:09:25 GMT
I'm so sorry you've had more than your fair share to bear. And although I believe the universe doesn't have it in for you, sometimes it does feel that way. I sure don't have any answers right now, but I've just made a new friend who, despite having many agonizing life challenges in a short period of time, is not only surviving, but thriving. I'm hoping to garner some of her wisdom. Praying for respite and comfort for you Elaine.
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Post by Deleted on Dec 21, 2019 4:13:50 GMT
Ditto. I lost all faith on December 23, 1992, the day I watched my infant son die in my arms. Me and many others prayed awfully hard that week. Everything I think of to type sounds trite or wrong...so I will just say that I am here, and hearing you.
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Post by scrappinwithoutpeas on Dec 21, 2019 4:29:34 GMT
((HUGS)) I have no words of wisdom for you, just empathy for the situation of feeling like you're being overloaded. We are here with shoulders to cry on and ears to listen.
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Post by ~Susan~ on Dec 21, 2019 4:39:08 GMT
elaine I have no words of wisdom for you. It seems the older I get and I experience, the less I can understand the things that happen to good people. I can offer you a shoulder to cry on and arms to hold you. I do hope things get better for you.
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Post by lucyg on Dec 21, 2019 4:43:40 GMT
I’m sorry life is so hard right now.
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Post by leslie132 on Dec 21, 2019 4:53:25 GMT
Yes. I’ve wondered..... and I've told God many times that I was ready for what ever lesson he was teaching me to be over.
I’m not overly religious. My mom is, and so are some of my family. Not throw it in your face religious, more like” keep the faith, he is there” religious.
When my daughter died...... I was devastated. When my husband was diagnosed with a brain tumor...I was frantic When my husband lost his job.... I was terrified.
Every one of these events (which happened boom boom boom) were terrifying. Obviously my daughters passing was the worst. Some days, 9 years later I’m still not sure I’m completely healed, For me..... I see these events and know the pain they caused. I try my hardest to look at the events that followed.
My twins were born..... my rainbow after the storm My husband recovered at home...... he had so much time at home in the first 9 months of my twins lives. He never would have had that, had he not been recovering. My husband and I worked our butts off. We really held it together and have a better marriage because of it.....and now he is at a new job where he has so much less stress.
So yes, I know he is testing me....... and I know I want the test to be over.... I also know that the wait is worth it. I hope you “pass” the test soon. It isn’t easy, but in my stories I see it’s worth it.
Sending hugs and prayers
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Post by tentoes on Dec 21, 2019 4:53:37 GMT
So sorry you are hurting. ((HUGS)) to you.
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Post by Deleted on Dec 21, 2019 4:53:38 GMT
I'm sorry elaine and idahomom. I wish the internet had a way for us to send actual hugs or a gentle pat on the shoulder or hand. You are heard and cared about.
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Post by scrapmaven on Dec 21, 2019 4:55:13 GMT
I wish I could answer your question, because I ask myself all the time what I did to piss off the universe. However, I don't think G-d is testing us. That concept always seemed cruel. Perhaps it's random. Perhaps there's a larger force at work. Either way shitty things have been happening to you and there's no rhyme or reason. Believe me when I say I get it. I'm sorry that something more is happening to you. I can't fix it or answer your question, but I can listen, support you and be here as your friend.
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Post by tentoes on Dec 21, 2019 4:55:57 GMT
Yes. I’ve wondered..... and I've told God many times that I was ready for what ever lesson he was teaching me to be over. I’m not overly religious. My mom is, and so are some of my family. Not through it in your face religious, more like” keep the faith, he is there” religious. When my daughter died...... I was devastated. When my husband was diagnosed with a brain tumor...I was frantic When my husband lost his job.... I was terrified. Every one of these events (which happened boom boom boom) were terrifying. Obviously my daughters passing was the worst. Some days, 9 years later I’m still not sure I’m completely healed, For me..... I see these events and know the pain they caused. I try my hardest to look at the events that followed. My twins were born..... my rainbow after the storm My husband recovered at home...... he had so much time at home in the first 9 months of my twins lives. He never would have had that, had he not been recovering. My husband and I worked our butts off. We really held it together and have a better marriage because of it.....and now he is at a new job where he has so much less stress. So yes, I know he is testing me....... and I know I want the test to be over.... I also know that the wait is worth it. I hope you “pass” the test soon. It isn’t easy, but in my stories I see it’s worth it. Sending hugs and prayers Thank you so much for your testimony. ((HUGS)) to you!!
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Post by PLurker on Dec 21, 2019 6:54:36 GMT
Aww, elaine I think of you often. Wishing you better things ahead for you. Sending ((hugs)) to you and any among us having a hard time.
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Post by snyder on Dec 21, 2019 7:02:25 GMT
Sorry you are hurting and more has been put upon you. I will say a prayer for you and your family. {{{{hugs}}}}
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Post by bc2ca on Dec 21, 2019 7:26:04 GMT
I have no answers for you, but know you have had more than your share of challenges. I'm sorry to hear another has been added to your plate.
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Post by gar on Dec 21, 2019 7:34:48 GMT
No, having to ask questions like that seem to add even more pressure rather than help or give comfort in any way.
I'm really sorry you're feeling so overwhelmed with pressure and responsibility, it really doesn't seem fair at all ((hugs))
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Post by Deleted on Dec 21, 2019 8:04:28 GMT
I’m exhausted. And yet one more large responsibility has been dumped in my lap with less than a week before Christmas and Chanukah Sunday night. And this is an very sad one. It makes me question whatever I did so wrong in the universe that I deserve the unrelenting challenges over the past 3 years. It is so hard to keep faith during it all. How do you do it? I contemplate the book of Job. God has never tested me to the point Job was tested. Job had done nothing wrong yet he was tested beyond anything I have been through. He was tested because the devil felt Job was only upright and faithful because he had been blessed. If the blessing were removed he would not longer be faithful. In the end, after the testing, Job remained faithful and he was given even greater blessing.
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Post by Basket1lady on Dec 21, 2019 9:22:17 GMT
I’m so sorry that you are struggling. I don’t believe that God is testing you, but will be there for you through the storm and after. I hope you can find some peace with your difficult task.
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Post by lesserknownpea on Dec 21, 2019 9:27:49 GMT
I’m sorry elaine things sound so hard. But I don’t believe God tests us this way. I do believe our trials are random. It doesn’t necessarily help, but at least we know it’s not God doing it to us.
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Post by LavenderLayoutLady on Dec 21, 2019 9:42:26 GMT
I'm not religious, so please take my thoughts with a grain of salt.
I don't believe there is a force testing us, or is all powerful.
I just can't, because that would mean he was also testing children with cancer who have not lived long enough to have done something wrong, and yet criminals - adults who have raped four year olds and mothers that hold their children's hands over an open stove flame - are not always "tested."
If even one good person suffers, and even one malicious person lives a joyful life, then i cannot believe someone omnipotent is controlling fate, because they would be an evil force as well.
I much rather live life knowing that shitty things happen to all walks of life, and sometimes good things happen to shitty people. But it's random, and there is no fairness about it.
I've done a terrible job explaining my thoughts but its early. Sorry.
Many (((Hugs))) to you. I wish for you to have many happy moments because you are a darned good person and deserve them.
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Post by Deleted on Dec 21, 2019 9:47:57 GMT
No, I don't believe that God is testing you elaine Some people have more than their fair share of life challenges at times that's for sure and you are one of them. I'm sorry that your challenges have been added to, even more. Sending you hugs and hoping things get easier for you.
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Post by KelleeM on Dec 21, 2019 11:08:56 GMT
I’m so sorry you’re struggling with such a huge burden.
I don't allow myself to believe that God is testing us or that he doesn’t give us more than we can handle. I believe that we learn to handle what we’re given and taught to ask for help in handling our burdens. I’m certainly not saying that you, or anyone else, is wrong for feeling like you’re being tested.
I also wish there was a way I could give you a real hug or just sit with you and listen. I’m crying as I write this because these are what I need as well. I sincerely hope that things get better for you soon.
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Post by gar on Dec 21, 2019 11:20:22 GMT
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Post by kibblesandbits on Dec 21, 2019 11:25:50 GMT
I am atheist. I can't imagine having faith in a deity that constantly punishes you. Borders on abusive, doesn't it? Mind blowing.
I'm sorry you're being handed another burden during this time of year. How stressful.
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Post by AussieMeg on Dec 21, 2019 11:58:41 GMT
I'm sorry that you have yet another challenge on your hands Elaine.
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