I have nothing I can say of any use other than to send you a cyber hug and my good wishes to your family for the future and some space to breathe when you can. I think in your shoes I’d be screaming “make it stop!” If just for a little while. Or “is that it?” In disbelief.
I think you are the strongest woman I have encountered. You might not think that but you certainly come across that way here imho. A force to be reckoned with and admire.
Do you have any family or friends that could give you even an over night break? There has to be someone in your community that could help you just a little bit. I would guess that person would have to spend quite a bit of time with your son before you would leave them alone with him.
I’m sorry that your family is dealing with these difficult decisions and the future is so overwhelming. You sound exhausted, frustrated and heartbroken, but the love a parent has for their child makes us sacrifice in so many ways . So many of us have children and take for granted that we send them off into the world prepared to take it on, and don’t realize just how lucky we are. Your post is a real eye opener. I’ll be thinking of you today.
I have read this several times, and wanted to reply, but everything I think of seems so useless. Just know that you have a huge group of awesome ladies cheering you on, we are here when you need to cry or vent, and we are praying for you. You are amazing, and your sons are very lucky to have you with them every step of the way.
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Good morning, everyone! I’m sitting here with Dh, ds, and our lawyer waiting for court to start in 5 minutes. I’ve been reading eveyone’s responses and drawing strength and love from them.
My goal was to thank each of you individually, but I have run out of time. So, please know that I have read each post and appreciate every one of them.
This is one of the best communities that I could imagine in so many ways - you all are such an amazing group of women and I am blessed/fortunate to have you in my life.
“Give me your tired, your poor, your huddled masses yearning to breathe free, the wretched refuse of your teeming shore. Send these, the homeless, tempest-tossed to me, I lift my lamp beside the golden door!” -The Statue of Liberty
You'll be in my thoughts and prayers today. Praying for strength for you. I also have 2 on the spectrum (and another with health and other issues) and many days are so hard to get through, let alone plan for the future. Yet, when you look back, you can see how much you have done for your kids and that they have made progress.
I can't imagine how hard today is going to be for you, but the fact that you're doing it shows what strong, supportive and loving parents your son has. Your son will live his best life because he has you advocating for him with love.
((((HUGS)))) to you today (and every day you need one).
Refupea #105 June 25, 2014