Monday will come. Try to keep yourself - your mind, if not your body - busy until then. And don't forget that there are lots of us here on similar journeys who are only too happy to chat if you want to PM. (My chemo #2 for breast cancer was yesterday.) The biggest, gentlest hugs to you.
You're enduring torture, but you're at the home stretch. After all of this is over I think you deserve to plan something really special for yourself, a wonderful vacation or something you've always wanted to do. You're strong and brave, but that doesn't make it any easier or any less difficult.
I'd like to help you out. Which way did you come in?
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I just read all of your updates and am so sorry you are going through such a nightmarish time. Somehow you sound strong in spite of it. Wanting to quit, having to be talked off the ledge, any emotions or crying - none of those take away from your strength. I so hope pain meds help and you’ll feel better soon and kick cancer to the curb.
Ohhhh, my heart goes out to you. Reading update #4 made me want to jump through the screen and give you a big hug. I hope somehow, someway, it becomes more bearable for you. You're 3/5s through, that's a good thing!
Continued prayers to you. I hope that you're not feeling too much pain or discomfort, but I wanted to tell you that if Tylenol 3's don't help, there is Tylenol 4 (butal/acetaminophen/caffeine/codeine). I take them daily for my eyesocket pain. They're not harsh on your stomach, etc., and they are effective. If that doesn't work either, there are many more pain Rx's out there for you to try. xo
ETA: You are a warrior. Even strong people who have been able to endure excruciating pain, need some help sometimes, or want to just cry it out. You've handled it all with grace. Needing some help with your pain or just with support doesn't make you any less a warrior!! HUGS to you. I'm so sorry you're going through the painful part.
My sister, like my mom, had a reoccurrence a few years ago. Their cancers both happened when they in their late 40’s and reoccurred over 25 years later. (Yet we test negative via genetic testing. )
My sister had a lumpectomy & radiation the first time, a radical, the second time. She had serious issues with the wound closing afterwards, likely due to the prior radiation. She spent months driving to Boston for hyperbaric treatments during COVID. Apparently you can’t watch TV or use your phone during the treatments, I’m not sure if she was even allowed a book.
She came through just fine, her wound has closed and you will heal up nicely as well.
Our mom lived many years after her second cancer before she passed away at age 95.
You are incredible and on the home stretch! I am so sorry for everything you are going thru. The radiation treatments sound horrendous, please talk with your doctor if the Tylenol #3 is not effective. Prayers and gentle gentle hugs ❤️