Post by jemmls4 on Jun 2, 2021 2:51:00 GMT
TW: suicide - so please don’t read if that is an upsetting topic for you
I am so glad that today is almost over.
My son, I love him with everything I’ve got, but today ugh. Found out he lied to me about passing two of three classes with a high enough grade to get his Associates degree. He got the full-on ugly cry mom alternating with give me a good reason why I shouldn’t make you move out mom mixed in with lecture mom. I think he dislikes lecture mom the most.
My work sucks because no one thinks what I do is really that important forgetting they wouldn’t have any work to do without me vetting and figuring it out and designing shit with the architects.
Then my cousin calls and my heart dropped because I was sure that she was calling about my Aunt Hope who is 93. Instead, cousin tells me her sister passed away today and it looks like suicide. I feel so bad for her and her other sister. They lost their mother when they were like early 20s/late teens. Their brother purposefully ODed because he couldn’t cope with his mother’s death and now she’s lost another sibling to depression/suicide. She asked me to let my brother know.
I left him a message; he’s an airline pilot so I never know when he’s working. I just asked him to call me. He did a bit later and I told him and we chatted for a bit. We’re not close like calling a lot and we don’t live close either but I know he’s be here for me if I needed anything and I’d do the same for him. Well, he tells me the doctors think he has prostrate cancer. He’s had tests including CAT scan and MRI but no PSA. I used to work in hospital lab so I am yelling obscenities about that and told him to demand one. He’s going to have a biopsy in early July but trying to get it done earlier.
So having a bit of a pity party and my doggo is laying on top of me so there is that.
I am so glad that today is almost over.
My son, I love him with everything I’ve got, but today ugh. Found out he lied to me about passing two of three classes with a high enough grade to get his Associates degree. He got the full-on ugly cry mom alternating with give me a good reason why I shouldn’t make you move out mom mixed in with lecture mom. I think he dislikes lecture mom the most.
My work sucks because no one thinks what I do is really that important forgetting they wouldn’t have any work to do without me vetting and figuring it out and designing shit with the architects.
Then my cousin calls and my heart dropped because I was sure that she was calling about my Aunt Hope who is 93. Instead, cousin tells me her sister passed away today and it looks like suicide. I feel so bad for her and her other sister. They lost their mother when they were like early 20s/late teens. Their brother purposefully ODed because he couldn’t cope with his mother’s death and now she’s lost another sibling to depression/suicide. She asked me to let my brother know.
I left him a message; he’s an airline pilot so I never know when he’s working. I just asked him to call me. He did a bit later and I told him and we chatted for a bit. We’re not close like calling a lot and we don’t live close either but I know he’s be here for me if I needed anything and I’d do the same for him. Well, he tells me the doctors think he has prostrate cancer. He’s had tests including CAT scan and MRI but no PSA. I used to work in hospital lab so I am yelling obscenities about that and told him to demand one. He’s going to have a biopsy in early July but trying to get it done earlier.
So having a bit of a pity party and my doggo is laying on top of me so there is that.
