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Post by jeremysgirl on Sept 30, 2024 13:46:40 GMT
Right now for me it is family issues. Chloe is talking to me again but I just don't trust her after all the chaos she has caused for me these past few months. I am uncertain I will ever forgive my mom for her role in this either. I'm going to say something that is going to sound very pathetic and deep down, I know it's not right, not rational but...it's very hard when the people around you don't see value in having a relationship with you to not feel like your life has very little value. In the past few years, most of my scrapbooking has been about me. The kids are older, Esther is gone, and it's all been about my own life with everyone else doing cameos. And I just feel lately like no one will even care about this stuff, like no one cares. I told you it was pathetic. I'm working with a therapist to try to get myself back on track again and I'm taking good care of myself physically. My bipolar is good too. But psychologically, I feel defeated right now. I'm so sorry you are feeling this way. You are one of the most amazing women I know. I truly wished we lived near each other. Seeing a therapist is such a great move. I was in a similar position after my DH died. I spent 15 years putting all his needs first. I can be honest here and say he got very selfish the sicker he became. I am not judging, it's just a fact. Everyone expected me to be Superwoman. I expected it of myself. I had to see a therapist to deal with anxiety, grief, and depression. I could not figure out how to live my own life. I THINK that is where you are, too. You cared for your children with complex issues, putting yourself last. I hope you will figure out you can live your own life. Now is the time, dear friend. I can so resonate with what you said. I'm glad you've been able to get your life going in a new direction. I think the sentence where you said that you could not figure out how to live your own life just really hit me like, yeah, that's totally where I am. If we lived closer, I think we would be fast friends. You have been so very kind to me.
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Post by papersilly on Sept 30, 2024 17:19:08 GMT
1) lack of time 2) lack of motivation
i need to get over both of these in order to start working on xmas projects.
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Post by boymom5 on Sept 30, 2024 20:12:26 GMT
For me it’s part time, motivation and at the moment a lack of creativity.
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Post by workingclassdog on Sept 30, 2024 21:45:37 GMT
Usually my own head.. I'll finish cleaning, I'll catch up on some shows, I'll clean the poop in the yard, Need to do errands... whatever comes to mind. Now that we are slowing down at work (after being HUGELY busy).. I'll be back to doing most of the housework while I'm working from home days. Then I'll be able to scrap more. I've actually been pretty good lately. Knock on wood.
I just wish I had my own space again. It's all in my bedroom and I get irritated that 1/2 my room looks like a bomb hit it.. it's a huge bedroom, so there is room, it's just that it's the collect all space. Nothing matches, nothing ever got painted when we moved in. So while it is nice it is the catch all room.
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Post by gizzy on Oct 2, 2024 1:12:14 GMT
December Daily has exploded onto my desk for the past year. I was a few years behind. It doesn't leave much space for anything else. I hope to be caught up before this Christmas and then go through everything to put away or purge. I can't wait to have a working desk space again.
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Post by scrappyrabbit on Oct 3, 2024 4:03:45 GMT
Having a child and a job 😂😂
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Post by breakfastattiffanys on Oct 3, 2024 15:03:36 GMT
I’m a one project at a time scrapper. Other than PL, I don’t do well with open ended or unfinished projects. I like having a start and end in mind, that’s why mini books appeal to me. So i will hold off on starting a project until I know PL is caught up and also I have a free weekend where I can really get a good start.
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Post by LavenderLayoutLady on Oct 6, 2024 14:42:17 GMT
Oh my gosh, let me first just say, I was not expecting to find the therapy session I needed in this thread. Ladies, you amaze me. What is preventing you from scrapping as much as you want to? In August I decided I couldn't live with the clutter so I moved it down to the finished but dark basement where I used to scrap. And I haven't gone down there since. Ugh. I don't know how to have scrapbook stuff not in the basement and have it not overtake my life. Between that, and the fact that I'm back to work (I'm a teacher) my scrapping has come to a halt. This summer I was producing 5-10 pages a week. I miss it. I'm hoping to get things in control tomorrow and start again. Can you change the lighting in the basement? Add a lot more of it? I used to have my scrapping stuff up in my living room and it absolutely took over the space. Like I had no space to simply live, because it was wall to wall scrap supplies. But boy, I produced layouts like crazy. And honestly, my first answer was: How about making the basement the Living Room, and move your scrappy stuff upstairs again? Time, mood, and needy family members.. Yes, this. Between grief and mental illness, someone always needs me. Family members... I love to scrap about them, not with them hovering over me asking what's for dinner. This. I have no privacy, no place to have a thought of my own. There are not enough hours in the day!! Trus. I have not completed an entire layout in over a year. I think I forgot how to scrapbook and it makes me sad. I just stare at it..I feel this. It's been several years since I actually completed a layout. I get so sad because I used to be good at it. Really good at it. Or at least, really content with my process and my finished outcome. I don’t have an office or a dedicated scrap space so I have to pull out all of my stuff and I work on my couch. Me neither. I don't even have a bedroom. Having a space with a door that I can pull stuff out and leave untouched, away from nosey prying eyes, apparently is a necessity for me to be productive. I miss having a scrap space. Me too. And when I am mentally drained, crafting isn't on my mind. Yes!! And I don't remember even a single day in years that I have not been mentally drained. mood has alot to do with it. Not just my mood. If others are upset or sad or frustrated or anxious, I feel their emotions and find it hard to channel positive energy into the creative process. Yes! I have family members actively grieving that need my support daily. Family members with mental health diagnoses that are still on wait lists for therapy, etc. I am asked questions, asked to give reassurances, asked to listen every single day, several times a day, sometimes several times an hour, by several different people. Fatigue has been the biggest one lately Physical and mental and emotional. Mental exhaustion is another part, most of this comes from family and work. And I love that my kids come to me for support and just conversation (not necessarily answers) it can be tiring to always be "on call"Yes! So much this. Yes. Definitely a lack of devoted space. Yes. Right now for me it is family issues Yes. I just feel lately like no one will even care about this stuff, like no one cares Big (((hugs))) You matter. And we care. Your friends on this board. Your honesty with yourself and openness with us is incredible. You help give me the words that I haven't allowed my own mind to form about the way I feel. It is so hard to give all of yourself, constantly, everyday, putting out fires, solving all the problems, being the collateral damage in other people's lives, and then realize no one is asking, "But are you okay?" Everyone expected me to be Superwoman. I expected it of myself. This right here. I feel this every day. Everyone else is put first. Everyone else is prioritized over me, and at the end of the day, I am just empty. I am a shell who is just moving forward, continuing on, because I know if I don't, there is no one else to take care of all of them.
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pantsonfire
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Post by pantsonfire on Oct 6, 2024 14:54:13 GMT
jeremysgirl mikklynn" Oh the supermom/superwomen complex. Not only does society place this on us women but dang nabbit social media has certainly increased the pressure. Especially the mom to disabled children portion of social media. The three of us and so many more here have dealt with some very hard, very real issues. We did what was best. We did what we should do. We were moms and wives.
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Post by Texas Scrap on Oct 6, 2024 15:35:41 GMT
I am pretty good at starting and mostly finishing Dec Daily. And I am also good at starting other projects, but terrible at finishing them! So I would say distractions, feeling like other things are priorities, lack of discipline. I have several travel, WITL, PL and some DITL pages that are all WIP. Ugh. I really want to get things finished, but I struggle to have the motivation and make the time to get things over the finish line. Like DITL, WITL 2024 would not take a ton of hours to finish. And PL I am practically apathetic when I think about it, but I bought the SBTM kits so I have no excuses for not doing even just a basic PL for 2024. I also think I need to better organize some of my stuff and possibly make some deadlines? I really need a better routine for cleaning, organizing and actually doing stuff! I loved Ali's STASH class and Linda's planning class but I need to actually take action and apply what I learned .
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Post by jeremysgirl on Oct 6, 2024 16:27:18 GMT
At the end of the day pantsonfire as long as we know deep in our hearts we did our very best, I can live with that.
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