How are we feeling today after the initial shock has gone?

I guess I'm going through the phases of grief. I'm angry with Biden and the party in general that he waited so late to withdraw. I feel like Kamala didn't have a fair chance to sell herself or get her message out. 

Please re-read what I actually wrote - in 2016 - I didn't know what was coming but this time, I know and I don't believe that he'll do anything that doesn't directly benefit himself. He showed that during his first term and in the time since. IN ALL PREVIOUS elections - I felt that even if I didn't agree with the President, I could trust that they had the country's best interests in mind even if I disagreed with what those were.

samantha25 - nothing good

I am on day 2 of no news. I just can’t bear to watch anything about that fat fucking monster. I feel pretty good. I’m leaning heavily into my hobbies and I think that’s going to help me feel better.

I spent yesterday wallowing. Cancelled my volunteer gig (not cool but I just couldn’t face the kids). Drank way too much.

It was a dreadful idea so maybe don’t do that . But I was just fucking tired of always having to keep on keeping on.

Feel dreadful today, but I need to get it together. Eat well, exercise, get good sleep. Trap some more cats and teach English to orphans and thank God I don’t live in the US.

I did not succumb to drinking. DS & I toyed with having a glass of whatever at dinner but we didn’t. I did succumb to 1/4 pint of icecream though. My bad.

This. I think that if I avoid his orange face by doing more reading than TV, I will be ok. I do not want to listen to him or look at him, above all.

I deleted my FB account, I blocked all news feeds on my homepage, I'm not watching any news. The world could blow up and I won't know and won't care.

When Bezos refused to allow the Washington Post to make an endorsement, the existential dread I felt during his first term returned. I let myself get swayed by the Seltzer Iowa poll, and that was a mistake. In the case of a Trump victory, there was never a "not bad" outcome in my mind and I've been thinking about what we could do to prepare for it, since it was clear he would be the nominee. Which isn't much, unfortunately. Zero debt (including the house) and what could we do in terms of household repairs and, larger items because I expect them to be more expensive in the future, and debating moving back to the PNW. Colorado is one of the only places that didn't see huge slippage, but we are still a blue state in a sea of red, and that might not be safe for the rest of my lifetime. Plus, climate change effects. The vaccine thing, I did not think of. I haven't had a doctor for years, for reasons and anxiety and the thought of having to go to make sure my childhood vaccines are still good is causing me more anxiety.

My anger today is more directed to those who are holding onto the belief that there was something Democrats could do to have changed the outcome, when as I've posted elsewhere, I believe what happened here is what is happening globally and has historical precedent. This is how an alternative to authoritarianism choices will continue to lose. People wanting to believe unicorns exist instead of believing people actively chose the Devil. Given what Trump and his surrogates have said about targeting political enemies, I expect there will be an election in 2028, and 2032 and beyond. But autocrats will still win, because they will have identified and knee-capped potential adversaries *before* they can rise to the national prominence and respect that it will take to win. They will have lade down all the potentials with baggage, that when it came time to vote people of both parties, will have a shopping list of reasons to chose from that made them "not a good candidate."

Otherwise, I'm saving my angst for later. Today, Joe Biden is still president and Mitch McConnell isn't Senate Majority Leader. There will be plenty of opportunity for despair later. We went to Tokyo Disneyland in mid-October, so I've been working on my Trip Report for my Disney Pin Collecting forum. Distraction for me, and distraction for others who may need one right now.

I was hoping that Kamala would win and I wouldn’t have to listen to Trump’s voice anymore. His voice irritates the crap out of me. I wanted him to lose the election and afterwards I wanted to see him on TV going to prison.

I'm still not sleeping well. It's not just the election as we are wrapping up a project at home. I should be waking up with excitement about finishing a remodel that I started planning 18 months ago. Instead at night, I can't keep thinking about what is to come. Then I think of something or read something new or a reminder of something I'd forgotten. Like this morning an article about how Trump usually wants to pressure the Fed to lower interest rates (whether they should be or not). The White House usually leaves policy to the Fed, but he wants to put his thumb on everything - things he truly doesn't understand.

So I alternate thinking about things I have to do and things that might happen. I also miss the news. I still check NYTimes site but I can't stay there long. I was too obsessed with political news before the election but now I know it is just going to frustrate me further so I'm avoiding news sites I used to enjoy.

And I've avoided the gym this week. I've been busy but mostly I don't want to encounter anyone who will be the least bit happy with the outcome.  In a county where 79% of the voters (and we had about an 80% turnout) voted for him, there will bound to be talk I can't escape.  Next week I'll go back.

I need to find a way to accept what I can not change and get on with life. I can not let that man take anything more from me than what he may do with his economic and social policies.

I have emotional support liege waffles from Costco (plus strawberries and whipped cream), and I had DH stop at Safeway on the way home on Tuesday for emotional support cake slices. Normally, I eat mine in 2 days, but I still have some left for tonight on Night 3. I'm so proud of myself, lol.

Awwww jayfab. That makes me want to cry. (((hugs)))