Today marks what would've been my 29th wedding anniversary
Jun 14, 2016 0:31:40 GMT
**GypsyGirl**, freebird, and 71 more like this
Post by Deleted on Jun 14, 2016 0:31:40 GMT
And while I'm sure I should be feeling sad, I just cannot.
I am too busy feeling so EMPOWERED.
The divorce decree was signed on May 27th, ironically enough, the very same day I moved out of the house. Independence Day came early this year...Times 2.
In the past 3 weeeks, (hell 9 months) I've done SO MUCH that I have never done...stuff I never thought I could do.
I managed to put my computer together after the move. Granted, I was completely overwhelmed with everything that had to be plugged in. After I took a moment, freaking out saying "I can't do this" I broke it down one component at a time. And I DID it. Everything worked. (or so I thought) A few days later, I tried to print something and got an error message. I tinkered around and then googled the error message. I figured out what was wrong and the best part...HOW TO FIX IT. I can now print.
I figured out how to connect the television to the cable box. I moved a ton of furniture alone. I figured out how to get a filing cabinet that I found at Goodwill to my apartment to put my television on.
Small things to many of you, I'm sure. But this is stuff I'd never done. I never HAD to do it, or worse yet, figure out how to do it.
But I am doing it each and every day. Last night I reflected on all that I had done and I actually surprised myself.
I feel so good. I love my new apartment. ( and with the exception of my second night there, have managed to NOT nearly burn it to the ground) Things now have their own space IN MY OWN SPACE. I've had my son for a week and my youngest daughter has routinely spent the night several times.
On Saturday, eldest daughter had to bring something to my son. She came in and stated that her Dad was out in the car and asked if he could come in.
In my heart of hearts, I DID NOT WANT HIM IN MY APARTMENT. However, I was reasonable and mature and told her to wave him in to look around. Even though I didn't want him in here, and totally could've made him wait in the car, I didn't want to be petty.
I never thought I would feel the value of ME again that I now feel.
I will miss my plants...I knew I'd miss my plants. I put so much of myself into the landscaping when we did a massive overhaul a few years ago. I have a patio that gets great morning sun...so at some point I'm going to have some plants again. But when taking the garbage out tonight, I noticed a pathway of gardenias. Gardenias are my favorite. We had multiple small gardenias (which is what these were) and I had a jubilation gardenia...and now I will again get to experience gardenias in bloom.
For me, things have just gone my way. For that, I'm so thankful because it has made what should've been a very difficult time quite bearable and has shown me who I've been all along and didn't really recognize.
I am too busy feeling so EMPOWERED.
The divorce decree was signed on May 27th, ironically enough, the very same day I moved out of the house. Independence Day came early this year...Times 2.
In the past 3 weeeks, (hell 9 months) I've done SO MUCH that I have never done...stuff I never thought I could do.
I managed to put my computer together after the move. Granted, I was completely overwhelmed with everything that had to be plugged in. After I took a moment, freaking out saying "I can't do this" I broke it down one component at a time. And I DID it. Everything worked. (or so I thought) A few days later, I tried to print something and got an error message. I tinkered around and then googled the error message. I figured out what was wrong and the best part...HOW TO FIX IT. I can now print.
I figured out how to connect the television to the cable box. I moved a ton of furniture alone. I figured out how to get a filing cabinet that I found at Goodwill to my apartment to put my television on.
Small things to many of you, I'm sure. But this is stuff I'd never done. I never HAD to do it, or worse yet, figure out how to do it.
But I am doing it each and every day. Last night I reflected on all that I had done and I actually surprised myself.
I feel so good. I love my new apartment. ( and with the exception of my second night there, have managed to NOT nearly burn it to the ground) Things now have their own space IN MY OWN SPACE. I've had my son for a week and my youngest daughter has routinely spent the night several times.
On Saturday, eldest daughter had to bring something to my son. She came in and stated that her Dad was out in the car and asked if he could come in.
In my heart of hearts, I DID NOT WANT HIM IN MY APARTMENT. However, I was reasonable and mature and told her to wave him in to look around. Even though I didn't want him in here, and totally could've made him wait in the car, I didn't want to be petty.
I never thought I would feel the value of ME again that I now feel.
I will miss my plants...I knew I'd miss my plants. I put so much of myself into the landscaping when we did a massive overhaul a few years ago. I have a patio that gets great morning sun...so at some point I'm going to have some plants again. But when taking the garbage out tonight, I noticed a pathway of gardenias. Gardenias are my favorite. We had multiple small gardenias (which is what these were) and I had a jubilation gardenia...and now I will again get to experience gardenias in bloom.
For me, things have just gone my way. For that, I'm so thankful because it has made what should've been a very difficult time quite bearable and has shown me who I've been all along and didn't really recognize.
(hitting the like button didn't quite seem enough)
