What would you let go of if you could?

I'm sorry you are dealing with this worry, Goldynn!

As they say- God works in mysterious ways!
I just had a mini moment about this- less than 30 minutes ago. I need to deal with things as they are, resolve what I can and not be so focused on solving the future. My moment ended in a prayer, really more like a plea.

I know my prayer wouldn't be everyone's choice. I'm sure I'll bungle my words typing on phone but I'm trying to express havingyou Peas can make me feel "attached " to others when I'm trying to hold real life in.

The "what ifs" are what get to me. Worrying accomplishes nothing, especially when I fret over stuff that is just plain stupid, but it is hard to let that habit go. If only I could flip a switch! Prayer does help. Hope you all make progress with your letting goes.....

I was worried about something this past weekend. I knew I needed to turn it over to God but I didn't. Today things have begun to work out and I can see God's hand in the two situations even despite myself.

I wish I could just let go the shitty childhood I had. I have about 75% of it, but the reminders that pop up once in a while really get to me.

In truth, when you hit your 50's, you witness things you'd prefer not to have seen. I had both my parents die...having performed CPR on my Dad (and brother, for that matter) and was unable to save either. My mother died of cancer here at home. And these things are NOT unusual to witness...I have no issues with my parents passings. They're just part of the circle of life. My brother's was traumatic, so I'm still dealing with it. I know it will lessen with time though, although I still have flashbacks of an incident that happened in college and never have gotten rid of that. Oh well....life IS actually good and my life isn't a greek tragedy, although it might sound like it on this board!

I wish I could let go of thinking about my XH. Good, bad, angry, forgiving, whether it's half a minute or half an hour, he is on my mind at some point every single day. I just want it to stop. I want him to not be in my head 4 1/2 years post-divorce.

Our house has been sitting on the market for years. Now we're getting ready to rent it out. I'm worried about all the things that could go wrong, how it will impact our financial future, etc. We may luck out and have great renters, but it may go in the exact opposite direction. I'm also worried, it won't rent at all or sell when the time comes. It's been the focus of our lives for several years and added tremendous stress. There are several other things that worry me, because I'm a worrier by nature, but that is my top one at the moment.

Cancer.

I'd like to send it away. No more treatment, no more side effects, no more cancer.

I constantly battle anxiety that something awful is going to happen. Can't really shake it. One of my biggest fears is that one of my loved ones is going to be die in a car wreak. I personally can't drive on the interstate anymore and am an awful passenger. It started more than 30 years ago when I was driving and a tractor trailer started coming in my line and I jerked to the left to get out his way. I lost control, went through the grassy area in the middle, crossed three lanes of oncoming traffic and hit a guard rail on the opposite side of the interstate. It was a miracle I didn't hit another car (cars were scattering everywhere to avoid me). Also my gas tank was ruptured from hitting the guard rail but the car did not catch fire. The tow truck driver kept saying "you are one lucky little lady." You'd think after 30 years I'd be over it but unfortunately I'm not.