Is anyone else having a bad day dealing with the pandemic

I woke wearing a massive pair of cranky pants today. Fortunately yapping with my sister helped.

My mom's mental state is rapidly deteriorating and some physical problems are coming on as well, all while my dad is on meds for 2 aggressive cancers. I haven't seen them in 18 months and with each day the realization that I likely won't see them again rises. Ouch.

Yes. It is all so disheartening.
All the different states handling the vaccine differently is really stressful too. I thought once the vaccine was rolling it things would calm down, but it is all such a mess it is causing me more stress!

I live on the border of Oregon and Washington. I teach in Oregon, but live in Washington. Washington just released their updated guidelines, only teachers over 50 will be getting the vaccine initially. They haven’t announced when younger teachers will be getting it, but it will be May at the very, very earliest.

In Oregon they are prioritizing teachers over old people. My mom is old and lives in Oregon. If we traded residences we would both be getting the vaccine much sooner. She will likely be June or later even though she is old and has congestive heart failure.

I don’t mind waiting for the vaccine, but if my co workers all get the vaccine and schools open in Portland my school will open. Will parents want an unvaccinated teacher working with their kids? Will I have to stay home until I get the vaccine? Will I lose my job because I am 49 (almost, still 48 for a a week or so) and can’t be vaccinated until so much later then Oregonians?

I don’t mind staying home (well, I hate it, but am willing to do so to keep people safe and will wait for my vaccine) but I don’t want to lose my job and my unemployment because of the state I work in vs the state I live in.

You are not alone. I’ve been trying to go easy on myself and my son because it’s very hard to be the sole provider of his emotional needs. I homeschool him as well and my husband thinks I don’t push hard enough but I’m like dude I’m doing the best I can here.

Yep. My sister had her second (and last) baby today. It makes me so sad that I won't get any newborn snuggles at all. Who knows how old she will be before I get to meet her? 😔

Today is the first day in weeks that I honestly felt good. I felt like a normal person today and for me that was such a victory.

And then I got on a conference call and had to listen to my coworker bitch about not being able to eat in a restaurant and how Democrats are tearing the country down and how she won't be returning to work if gas if $8 a gallon. And I just sat there in silence. Thanking God that I get to work from home and don't have to be exposed to her at work.

And welp, that brought me down for sure. And then I finished up my work (I had a super productive day today) and I logged out for ten days off. Yay, me!

I decided even to have a glass of wine with dinner tonight.

But I'll tell you I've been very unsteady lately. I'm holding it together. I see my psych next Friday and I'm asking her to increase my meds.

ETA: I'm only liking posts because I feel you, sisters.

Me!!!
London mayor has announced a Major incident here. My boss is recovering from covid and refusing to get the practice professionally cleaned before she reopens next week. She’s clearly still unwell as she keeps giving us different days she’s coming back to work and arguing with me that I’m wrong even though her WhatsApp messages are there to see.

I’m not sure the practice is safe for our patients- or myself . I’ve given up a lot of my holiday inc Christmas eve to cancel patients and deal
With track and trace and have now been told we won’t get paid as she ‘hasn’t been earning ‘- this woman is a millionaire 😡

My direct opposite colleague has said she won’t come in anymore as she doesn’t feel safe and is expecting to be furloughed , my boss won’t discuss who will cover her shifts- it’s an absolute sh*t show . Then her sister comes on the work whatsapp group and criticiseS my daughter ( who jumped in last Saturday to help me cancel patients )and I because there was one patient we couldn’t get hold of who contacted my boss about his appointment ( I’m amazeD he got through - she hasn’t answered my calls or texts since 21st December!) we had actually driven round some houses with letters, but couldn’t contact 2 because sfe had their notes so we had no address for them .


I’ve just about had it . It’s a very part time job but I take it very seriously and the money helps me to support my daughter whilst she’s too ill to work, so I can’t just quit as I’d like to!

It’s definitely tiring. Keep on keeping on friends!

I have filled out the form on that state site. The state is starting 1b..but police and EMTs(?)..
But no idea when they get to me. I don't mind the bottom of 1b, it's ok.
The county won't let me sign up at all.

You’re so not alone. It’s disheartening the number distributed vs inoculations.

I’m disappointed in Gov. Northam (VA). His news conferences are infrequent. In fact, just this week Northam held his first virus briefing in nearly a month. Jjust getting around to naming someone in charge of the state’s vaccine effort. It’s not like we haven’t known for a year that a plan would be needed.

Virginia’s positivity rate is 17%. In contrast, Maryland’s is 8%’and DC is 6%.

I totally hear you! I have felt sad too. Even though I have been able to see my adult children, and my parents some. I have not really seen much of anyone else besides my co-workers. I miss going out to dinner with friends. Just doing things. I miss those things and YET, there are post on fb all over of people out doing whatever. having parties, going out, getting together for cmas and NYE, When my family didn't do any of those things. It makes you just want to just give up. because WHY should I do it??? when others don't??? and we need more people to do it to get thru this vaccine but of course they won't. ooooh, and then the USA politics and all that.....along with no time off at work, and my parents getting elderly and I am scare to death they will get sick...oh, yea, that makes me a sheeple. sigh.
so yes, I hear you loud and clear.

I'm sorry for everyone who is struggling

Honestly I'm doing great today mentally, physically I'm just not myself and I've felt like this for a few months. Probably building antibodies again, that's what I keep telling myself! (Idk if I have them or not, but I bet I probably do)

Today is DH's bday and we drove down to FL and it's cold as hell. We went for a long walk on a practically deserted beach and had a nice dinner, it's been a lovely day.

My message might only make sense to people in BC. My apologies.

I'm sorry you're feeling down today.  

You aren't alone if feeling blue.  I don't like living like this either.  I miss so many things.  Going to church.  Getting to be with friends.  Getting to hug people.  Going to concerts.  I hate wearing a mask, but I do it anyway.  Even after all these months of wearing a mask, I still find that I forget to grab one out of my car when I'm going into a place of business.

I don't like going for a walk and someone who walks past me pulls their scarf/mask/shirt up over their mouth & nose.  It makes me feel like a lepor.  

I know December 2021 feels like a long way away, but we're almost half way through this.  

Try to find little things that make you happy.  For me, it's been lighting good smelling candles.  

You are definitely not alone. 

The whole vaccine distribution "plan" -- or lack of one -- is depressing. I'm holding out hope that Biden can get something going when he's finally in the White House. I was telling my dh this evening that our health people need to call in health experts from some of the "shit hole countries" to help with this. I remember yellow fever and measles outbreaks when I lived in Africa... the public health folks would roll into our town (really just a large-ish village), the police would show up and round everyone up, everyone would line up and boom, everyone was vaccinated. 

Now obviously we know that third world countries have major health issues and that vaccines are scarce in so many places... But when they have them they do know how to distribute them. We need some large outdoor centers such as stadiums, major parks, etc. where they could vaccinate a lot of people in a shorter amount of time. 

My dh works at the State Department and although he's considered essential personnel within the department -- on call during times of world crisis, first to be evacuated to a site away from DC, etc. -- he's not essential in terms of the vaccine. Yet he was able to get it because State had extras. Dh is unsure about whether it was extra because they were given too much, or if it was because some people refused to get it... But each week they have an open sign up for people who want the leftovers. So now we're wondering how many other places have extras that are going to waste.

Meanwhile in Virginia I'm in group 1-C. They're on 1-A at the moment and it's going slowly. Dd isn't even in 1 anything... she's not until much later. I'd give my dose to her if I could.

My mother is getting hers because she lives in an assisted living place, but I still don't know if that means I'll be able to visit her. Does anyone here know? if she's vaccinated but I'm not, does that mean we could at least visit at a safe distance? 

I think part of everyone's sadness at the moment is because it's winter. It was a bit easier to bear back in the warmer weather. Plus of course back then we had no idea it would go on this long. But at least when the weather was nice we could sit outside, or go to the park with friends and sit around at a distance but still talking. etc. 

And of course add in the events at the Capitol. I live just across the river from DC and several counties here had a curfew on the night of the attack on he Capitol. So many of the terrorists were staying at hotels here in Alexandria and Arlington (and most likely Falls Church, and Fairfax) that our mayors asked the governor to declare states of emergency and to put in a curfew because they were afraid that the idiots would come back here afterwards and cause trouble. And Virginia is an open-carry state.    We actually did have some incidents of vandalism where store windows were smashed (several small shopping centers had all stores vandalized) and you know it was the trumpers.    And as we saw at the Capitol they are just so stupid that they don't even think about security cameras. hahahahahahahaha 

As I type this I can hear dh downstairs on the phone and his voice is going up and up....I worry about his blood pressure. It's never been high but after all this who knows.... 

My dog is 13 and being tested on Monday for Cushing's disease.

Zoom doesn't work well in our house if more than 2 or 3 people are on it, so I'm basically cut off from my church.

My dd can't find a job. Thankfully she's just enrolled in a graduate program for non-profit management so hopefully that will keep her from getting too depressed over it all. I feel like I'm the major mood-enhancer around here. But as I said above, because of the weather we can't even go do some of the things we did back in the summer.

And both of my jobs -- substitute teacher and hospital chaplain -- have been on hold. I'm not subbing virtually because the technology was just too much to deal with. And I have been in to the hospital a handful of times since Covid for some emergencies. And now that our numbers are rising they've canceled all in-hospital pastoral care except from the full-time chaplain. I do some pastoral care by phone but to me that is just sad.   My absolute favorite time is when I'm on call for the weekend and I sleep at the hospital. Walking the halls and spending time in the ICU and the ER at night is a whole different thing than daytime work. And there's always the NICU and getting to cuddle babies.   All that is gone for now.

So yeah...