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Post by freecharlie on Dec 12, 2021 2:51:53 GMT
We like the same music, movies, TV shows, leisure activities, most restaurants and food.
Everything I like is connected to him and while I still enjoy it, it is a trigger.
Why couldn't we have been less alike?
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Post by luckyjune on Dec 12, 2021 2:59:03 GMT
A friend who went through a divorce that she put off for way too long told me that the first year is tough because of the "firsts." First time at a restaurant you both enjoyed. First time you travel somewhere you both liked, etc. For one year, she did her best to recognize how she felt in those firsts. She let herself feel sad and even said to herself, "The last time I was here, (not-so-dh's name) was with me. She said not all of those occasions were bad. There were times where she remembered being miserable or he acted like an ass toward her. In those situations, she was relieved he wasn't there.
None of this is easy, but like the women before you, you will survive. You've got all the peas in pealand to prop you up. xxoo
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Post by manomo on Dec 12, 2021 3:00:25 GMT
You are not alike.
You were faithful. He was not.
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Post by freecharlie on Dec 12, 2021 3:07:47 GMT
I'm at my favorite hockey game of the year... We had tickets with my family and his. I'm enjoying the game, but my thoughts keep going to him
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Post by seaexplore on Dec 12, 2021 3:11:55 GMT
I'm at my favorite hockey game of the year... We had tickets with my family and his. I'm enjoying the game, but my thoughts keep going to him Focus on the game and enjoy the fights picturing him as the one getting their ass beat!
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Post by librarylady on Dec 12, 2021 3:26:41 GMT
I was given this hint/trick--and it worked for me.
When your mind strays to him, or a memory you don't want............Just say "Stop!" outloud if needed
Then force your mind to something else. Eventually you will break the habit of thinking of him.
Yes, it is a shame that our mind does that to us, but just tell it "STOP!"
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Post by jemali on Dec 12, 2021 5:19:24 GMT
Try thinking about the things you can do now that you like but he didn’t. I always buy pulp free orange juice because that’s what he likes, now I can buy pineapple orange juice. I leave out the mushrooms because he doesn’t like them, now I can add extra if I feel like it.
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Post by kelly316 on Dec 12, 2021 16:10:59 GMT
We like the same music, movies, TV shows, leisure activities, most restaurants and food. Everything I like is connected to him and while I still enjoy it, it is a trigger. Why couldn't we have been less alike? I would like to tell you that this part gets easier, but I’m not going to lie to you. In my case, I wanted the divorce so I should be great. Right?? I know this is extreme, but I often wonder if I should move somewhere away from where we shared so many memories. The triggers are endless living in the same town. Another part of me feels I shouldn’t have to move! Does anyone have any thoughts on this?
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Post by freecharlie on Dec 12, 2021 17:15:28 GMT
I'm definitely not moving from the area. My family is here, my friends, and my job.
I am sure I can take it back slowly, I mean I am only a month out from dday and less than a week from filing.
If you aren't as connected to the area, maybe moving would be a fresh start.
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Post by ScrapbookMyLife on Dec 12, 2021 17:40:07 GMT
There's already some good advice on this thread.
My advice...
This is all very new for you. With time..... your feelings, perspective, viewpoint, opinions, etc... will change. You are now free to live as you please, without having to take someone elses opinion or input into consideration. You are currently in the very hard, painful, confusing, a bit lost and floundering and no idea what you are doing, beginning phase. Your emotions and feelings are stressed, hurting, worn out, on overdrive, etc...
With each day, as time passes you will move into "the middle phase" >> healing, learning, growing, finding who you are as a "me" not a "we", figuring out which direction you may want to go in. It all takes time. One day at a time, sometimes one hour at a time.
There will be mistakes, detours, meltdowns, change of directions, turning around on the path you are on and going back to the fork in the road and going the other way, trying something and not liking it, trying something and loving it, etc....
Then you will move into the next phase of I got this, I am strong, your new life will evolve.
Transitioning from "life as you know it" to whatever the future holds for you, isn't easy. All the above...it's all a part of the process.
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Post by fiddlesticks on Dec 12, 2021 20:44:39 GMT
Oh man, ugh. It is still early and I am sure there are a lot more things like that to come. It will take time to start building new memories with the things you enjoy. And while it isn't a death, there is very much a piece of grief to divorce.
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Post by leannec on Dec 12, 2021 21:47:30 GMT
It takes time ... just wait ... seriously. My ex and I had almost nothing in common except our dd's and dogs and I still have triggers ... once I move out of the family home in the Spring things will be better You are being proactive ... keep going!
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Post by rgibson on Dec 12, 2021 22:24:14 GMT
I am sure I can take it back slowly, I mean I am only a month out from dday and less than a week from filing. You are right, it is still pretty fresh and early times yet. You're also right in knowing that as time goes on, you will be able to take things back. I found it best if I didn't force things and just take it bit by bit, I was able to reclaim more and more things as my own. Sometimes it meant putting my own spin on it and other times I just said F%^& him, this is mine. To be fair though, my story is rather weird and the ex never lived in the house I was living in when I left him which was a big plus.
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Post by nine on Dec 13, 2021 0:23:04 GMT
Seek out a different type of music to get into. List whatever you like and then look for something else. That would make me very sad as I love music.
In fact, tell me what you like and let me search for something you might like.
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Post by silverlining on Dec 13, 2021 1:19:52 GMT
You enjoyed doing things with Husband 1.0. You had a lot in common with him. He was a decent guy.
Unfortunately that model is no longer available. Instead, you have Husband 2.0 who has a drinking problem, is not a good dad, is unfaithful, says cruel things, and lies. And he's dumb: dumb enough to think he could do terrible things and still sleep with you and dumb enough to think you'd go along with his BS until May or June, and dumb enough to think he could not look like the bad guy. Worse yet, he's dumb enough to be surprised that you're not going along with all that.
So, do the things you love, listen to the music you like, take good care of yourself and your sons, and be glad that you don't have to let 2.0 ruin your great life. Sometimes you'll remember Husband 1.0 and think of happy times, but then you'll remind yourself that that's not an option anymore, and the new model is a piece of sh*t. (Sorry.)
We are all pulling for you! You will get through the next year and come out so much happier than you are now.
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Post by voltagain on Dec 13, 2021 2:13:05 GMT
We like the same music, movies, TV shows, leisure activities, most restaurants and food. Everything I like is connected to him and while I still enjoy it, it is a trigger. Why couldn't we have been less alike? Being less alike wouldn't necessarily have helped. My ex and I did not like the same music, movies, tv or leisure activities, yet for the first yeas I had a lot of trouble with everything connected to the past. Everything from the past is a trigger simply because the past was with him. It gets better with time. Be kind to yourself. This phase shall pass slowly, almost imperceptibly you will realized you do enjoy the music, tv and activities again without the attached memories.
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Post by peasapie on Dec 13, 2021 3:23:10 GMT
No advice, but I will say I still reflect on things my ex and I did together, certain movies for example, and it makes me a little sad. I think it’s just human to do that, and I have found it happens far less over time, and the sadness is softer. Everyone we’ve known is part of the tapestry of our life and I try to honor that, but maybe you can also remind yourself that you are just beginning to write a new and exciting chapter — and making new memories — in your story.
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Post by kelly8875 on Dec 13, 2021 3:45:00 GMT
Try thinking about the things you can do now that you like but he didn’t. I always buy pulp free orange juice because that’s what he likes, now I can buy pineapple orange juice. I leave out the mushrooms because he doesn’t like them, now I can add extra if I feel like it. This is the type of stuff that worked for me too. I love Burger King, and he didn’t. And he wouldn’t go sit down in a fast food place to eat. So I started going to BK more, and would even sit inside. Small things like that, helped me find ME again.
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Post by freecharlie on Dec 13, 2021 5:07:22 GMT
I know I sound pathetic, but really, we like the same things and if one of us didn't like something, we left it out. There is very little that I like that he didn't.
But really, it is my hockey and baseball. It is the movies we watched over and over.
It's my hockey.
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Post by tincin on Dec 13, 2021 6:11:56 GMT
You will move past this and eventually you’ll be experiencing different “firsts” like the first kiss with a new man. The first year is excruciating. I remember coming home from work, showering, and going directly to bed to cry for the rest of the night. However, I’m 15 years divorced and happier than I’ve ever been in my life. I will have relationships but I will never remarry. Ugh, no thanks I’ll take the friend with benefits for $1000 Alex. It will get better.
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Post by melanell on Dec 13, 2021 13:24:26 GMT
Perhaps make a point to purposely try something new once a week---a food, a music genre, a TV show, a shop, anything. If you find that you like some of the new things, then you've given yourself the gift of things you can enjoy with no connection to him. And if not, you at least are still giving yourself something different to focus on each time you try something new. Hugs!!
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Post by piebaker on Dec 13, 2021 14:19:46 GMT
Can you join the booster club for your hockey team to meet some new people? It would be a way to enjoy hockey on your terms.
I'm sorry you are going through this.
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Post by scrappington on Dec 13, 2021 14:48:49 GMT
It takes time ... just wait ... seriously. My ex and I had almost nothing in common except our dd's and dogs and I still have triggers ... once I move out of the family home in the Spring things will be better You are being proactive ... keep going! [br This .. It really does take time. Eventually you will take back those items. It new and raw right now. But everyday it will get better. And one day you will see It's hard to see it now. And I hope one day you can let go of the anger.
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Post by luckyexwife on Dec 13, 2021 14:50:54 GMT
It will get better. I didn't listen to any music for months, too many things made me cry.
I have found new things I enjoy, and reclaimed things that we used to do together.
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Post by floridagirl on Dec 13, 2021 15:13:52 GMT
I'm at my favorite hockey game of the year... We had tickets with my family and his. I'm enjoying the game, but my thoughts keep going to him Focus on the game and enjoy the fights picturing him as the one getting their ass beat! I love this
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Post by auntkelly on Dec 13, 2021 15:19:18 GMT
I know I sound pathetic, but really, we like the same things and if one of us didn't like something, we left it out. There is very little that I like that he didn't. But really, it is my hockey and baseball. It is the movies we watched over and over. It's my hockey. Good for you for calling it "my hockey." It is your hockey and not his to take from you. Don't let him or anyone else rob you of the things you like to do.
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Post by Tearisci on Dec 13, 2021 15:51:31 GMT
I know this sentiment. Exh and I were best friends and did everything together. He told me he really liked me but didn't want to be married to me.
It does help that I moved to a state with no memories attached, but especially hard around this time of year.
it's been almost 4 years separated and almost a year divorced and I still think of him daily.
I hope that goes away sometime!
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Post by julie5 on Dec 13, 2021 16:07:54 GMT
To this day I still hate: Star Wars Everybody loves Raymond Lord of the rings Comics and super hero movies (he gets all preachy about values and shit) The eagles
Every holiday, especially my birthday and Mother’s Day that fall on the same day every few years, has some sort of painful memory attached. I spend a lot of time making my own traditions.
We’ve been divorced for 14 years. These things are still ingrained in my soul as “his”. He is a covert narcissist and I still struggle with so many things.
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