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Post by jeremysgirl on Jun 14, 2022 14:52:16 GMT
We finally have the autopsy concluded and they have issued a cause of death. They are calling it an accidental fentanyl overdose. I thought that having an answer would make me feel better. I thought it would give me closure. But my feelings are so mixed up right now. I almost think I was ready to handle it if it had been intentional, but I assume that there was such a small amount of fentanyl in her system and the fact that they found no drugs in my home when they searched everything leads them to believe it was accidental instead of intentional. And now I have a whole host of other feelings. I saw no evidence of drug use in the months prior to me leaving for my vacation. If it was accidental, I feel that this was such a senseless death, not that if it had been intentional, it wouldn't have been equally devastating, but at least I expected that in some really odd way based on her history. All I know is I'm sitting here just in tears trying to make sense of all this and my emotions are so mixed up, I can't even work them out.
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Post by Zee on Jun 14, 2022 14:55:35 GMT
I am so sorry for the fresh hurt you're going through. 😔❤️
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Post by wellway on Jun 14, 2022 14:58:42 GMT
I'm so sorry.
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Post by finsup on Jun 14, 2022 15:01:06 GMT
I’m so, so sorry. Lots and lots of hugs.
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Post by fiddlesticks on Jun 14, 2022 15:04:02 GMT
Oh wow. I’m so so sorry.
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Post by hop2 on Jun 14, 2022 15:06:11 GMT
I’m so sorry that you are dealing with this. Hugs
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Post by Merge on Jun 14, 2022 15:07:01 GMT
I’m so sorry. I hope you are able to find some peace with this. I can’t imagine how hard it is.
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Post by jenjie on Jun 14, 2022 15:07:31 GMT
Ahhhh honey I’m so sorry. So sorry. Gentle hugs.
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Post by leannec on Jun 14, 2022 15:07:37 GMT
Oh, that is some heavy stuff to deal with ... I'm so sorry ... hugs to you!
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Post by kenziekeeper on Jun 14, 2022 15:08:15 GMT
I’m so sorry. I’ll be thinking of you as you navigate this twist in the road.
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Post by PolarGreen12 on Jun 14, 2022 15:09:09 GMT
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Post by christine58 on Jun 14, 2022 15:09:35 GMT
I am so sorry.
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Post by gar on Jun 14, 2022 15:10:11 GMT
Big hugs while you work through your (very understandable) emotions (((hugs)))
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Post by malibou on Jun 14, 2022 15:10:53 GMT
I'm so sorry. I can totally see how confusing this would be. I wish you peace in the coming days as you process your thoughts and feelings, and grace from those around you as you do so.
Hugs!
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RosieKat
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Post by RosieKat on Jun 14, 2022 15:12:13 GMT
That's just another layer of difficulty here, isn't it? It seems to me that while you'd expected some degree of closure, it's really just more questions and that's just gor to be one more extra hard thing. I know you miss her and love her, but I'm also so proud of how you've managed to keep putting one foot in front of the other and keep going. I can't imagine how hard it must be, and this is just ripping a bandaid off a slowly healing wound. I'm so sorry, and wish I could get you answers.
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Post by 950nancy on Jun 14, 2022 15:12:22 GMT
I just can't imagine the hurt you are feeling. The questions, Hugs to you.
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Post by scrapmaven on Jun 14, 2022 15:13:44 GMT
I'm truly sorry that you've had news that brings you more pain. You have lots of friends here to listen and support you. ((((HUGS)))).
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Jili
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Post by Jili on Jun 14, 2022 15:15:46 GMT
I’m so sorry. What a shock to have to process. Hugs to you.
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Post by librarylady on Jun 14, 2022 15:17:51 GMT
I send you a hug of comfort. That report just opened the wound, instead of helping you heal.
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Post by naby64 on Jun 14, 2022 15:18:00 GMT
I am so sorry you have been hit with another wave.
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Post by supersoda on Jun 14, 2022 15:18:51 GMT
I am so sorry.
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Post by mikklynn on Jun 14, 2022 15:22:59 GMT
I'm glad you have answers, but know it doesn't ease your pain. Giant hugs as you experience all the feelings.
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Post by stormsts on Jun 14, 2022 15:26:14 GMT
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Post by Baseballmom23 on Jun 14, 2022 15:29:42 GMT
(((hugs))))
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Post by mellyw on Jun 14, 2022 15:30:23 GMT
I’m so sorry
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Post by littlemama on Jun 14, 2022 15:30:37 GMT
Im so sorry that you are going through this. I dont have any words of wisdom for you, just hugs.
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Post by Darcy Collins on Jun 14, 2022 15:31:21 GMT
((((((hugs))))))) we're always here for you as you process your grief - xo
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Post by J u l e e on Jun 14, 2022 15:32:05 GMT
I can imagine how trying to process and grieve an intentional death is completely different from processing and grieving an accidental death - and how making that switch in your mind just causes more questions and grief. I am so sorry. Peace to you.
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Post by pinklady on Jun 14, 2022 15:32:21 GMT
I'm so sorry you didn't get the closure you were hoping for. I can't imagine what you are going thru but I want you to know I am in awe of the strength and bravery you have shown here while enduring the unfathomable.
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Post by compeateropeator on Jun 14, 2022 15:33:03 GMT
I am so sorry for your pain.
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