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Post by elaine on Jan 26, 2016 0:10:49 GMT
zella, I've been thinking about you all day today and hope that you had a good sleep. (((Hugs)))
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Post by zella on Jan 26, 2016 0:41:35 GMT
Bad bad bad day. I'm so desperate again. The nausea is horrible and holding myself together is totally impossible once it hits. Impossible. I so need help.
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Post by flanz on Jan 26, 2016 0:44:24 GMT
I'm so sorry, Zella! (((HUGS)))
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Post by elaine on Jan 26, 2016 0:50:42 GMT
Bad bad bad day. I'm so desperate again. The nausea is horrible and holding myself together is totally impossible once it hits. Impossible. I so need help. Oh no! I'm so sorry. (((Hugs))) We are here again for you, if chatting would help distract you.
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Post by zella on Jan 26, 2016 0:54:34 GMT
Chatting is about my only option. I have a GI appointment tomorrow, a neurology appt. for Weds. I know that I need to be admitted, because I know how sick I am, but I just keep going round in circles.
No food or liquids for me so far today. Can't bear even the thought of it. Am trying to sip ginger ale.
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Post by tincin on Jan 26, 2016 0:59:25 GMT
Even if you only sip water or ginger ale, please try to stay hydrated.
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Post by peasapie on Jan 26, 2016 0:59:22 GMT
Chatting is about my only option. I have a GI appointment tomorrow, a neurology appt. for Weds. I know that I need to be admitted, because I know how sick I am, but I just keep going round in circles. No food or liquids for me so far today. Can't bear even the thought of it. Am trying to sip ginger ale. Glad you are going in tomorrow.
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Post by elaine on Jan 26, 2016 1:04:15 GMT
Chatting is about my only option. I have a GI appointment tomorrow, a neurology appt. for Weds. I know that I need to be admitted, because I know how sick I am, but I just keep going round in circles. No food or liquids for me so far today. Can't bear even the thought of it. Am trying to sip ginger ale. Keep sip sip sipping! Are there any hard candies you could think about sucking on? Something to keep getting some sugar in. Trader Joes has some ginger chews that were the only thing I could think about eating some days when I had morning sickness.
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Post by Deleted on Jan 26, 2016 1:06:32 GMT
Bad bad bad day. I'm so desperate again. The nausea is horrible and holding myself together is totally impossible once it hits. Impossible. I so need help. I am so sorry to hear that. I am praying for you and praying angels will surround you. It's tough to carry it all alonee.
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Post by Deleted on Jan 26, 2016 1:09:21 GMT
Chatting is about my only option. I have a GI appointment tomorrow, a neurology appt. for Weds. I know that I need to be admitted, because I know how sick I am, but I just keep going round in circles. No food or liquids for me so far today. Can't bear even the thought of it. Am trying to sip ginger ale. Can you get an internist who can admit you when he or she feels necessary? I went that route a few years ago. I hope your doctor appointment goes well tomorrow.
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Post by ktdoesntscrap on Jan 26, 2016 1:17:46 GMT
Even if you only sip water or ginger ale, please try to stay hydrated. Ice chips? they can just melt on your tongue and they help a lot.
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Post by christine58 on Jan 26, 2016 1:22:06 GMT
Ice chips zella... what about a wet wash cloth with some ice in it to suck on?? You do need to be admitted. Can someone get you to the ER now??? You need fluids..
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Post by Blind Squirrel on Jan 26, 2016 1:39:03 GMT
Praying for you.
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Post by kels99 on Jan 26, 2016 1:44:06 GMT
I'm so sorry. I have been thinking of you today too. Let's see, what can we chat about.....I'm headed to a Grange meeting in an hour. I 'accidentally' became a member of our Grange because they were on the verge of having to close it down and that would've meant the cool old building would've been sold and probably torn down. We use the space for some Girl Scout events, and I went to some of the informational meetings. They didn't have enough members to have a quorum, so next thing I know, I'm a member. It's actually very interesting, but things move at a snail's pace. Trying to get some changes made is hard work!! Other than that, I spent way too much time in the deodorant aisle of Walmart trying to remember which kind DD likes. LOL!
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Post by tiffanytwisted on Jan 26, 2016 1:44:16 GMT
Oh no! I was so hoping you were having a better day. So sorry you're suffering.
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Post by Zee on Jan 26, 2016 2:00:29 GMT
I'm going to be 100% honest here...you need more help than anyone here can give you, and as a nurse, you know I'm telling you the truth.
Distractions from your situation are just that...distractions. If you are losing a pound a day like you said, your family needs to have you committed if you refuse to go yourself. You know that your issues are far more complex than a GI appointment tomorrow can fix.
I really, REALLY hope no one here is going to tell you to ignore me and keep validating your refusal to get intensive therapy and treatment, because you're killing yourself. You've said you're well-off, so I will assume money is not a problem. If you're upsetting your DD then you owe it to her to do the right thing and get yourself into treatment.
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Post by NoWomanNoCry on Jan 26, 2016 2:07:22 GMT
I'm going to be 100% honest here...you need more help than anyone here can give you, and as a nurse, you know I'm telling you the truth. Distractions from your situation are just that...distractions. If you are losing a pound a day like you said, your family needs to have you committed if you refuse to go yourself. You know that your issues are far more complex than a GI appointment tomorrow can fix. I really, REALLY hope no one here is going to tell you to ignore me and keep validating your refusal to get intensive therapy and treatment, because you're killing yourself. You've said you're well-off, so I will assume money is not a problem. If you're upsetting your DD then you owe it to her to do the right thing and get yourself into treatment. I agee 100%
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Post by zella on Jan 26, 2016 3:44:32 GMT
I'm going to be 100% honest here...you need more help than anyone here can give you, and as a nurse, you know I'm telling you the truth. Distractions from your situation are just that...distractions. If you are losing a pound a day like you said, your family needs to have you committed if you refuse to go yourself. You know that your issues are far more complex than a GI appointment tomorrow can fix. I really, REALLY hope no one here is going to tell you to ignore me and keep validating your refusal to get intensive therapy and treatment, because you're killing yourself. You've said you're well-off, so I will assume money is not a problem. If you're upsetting your DD then you owe it to her to do the right thing and get yourself into treatment. No, I don't take this wrong. I wish I would be admitted so that multiple issues could be addressed at the same time. Unfortunately I'm not the one who makes that decision. Why I keep going round in circles and getting nowhere, I don't know. I have expressed how bad this is to multiple doctors. But still nothing changes. I truly don't know what else to do. I am trying to get counseling also, as I mentioned. Haven't been able to set this up yet. It doesn't help when you e-mail a therapist and they don't e-mail back! We are lucky to have good health insurance. Our annual deductible has already been met for 2016 due to my illness. While I know I need psychological help, I have to have my physical conditions under control first. I can't do anything when I'm so nauseated. I have a psychiatrist and a primary care doctor that I see regularly and both are aware of what's going on. As soon as I can function physically, I can look after myself emotionally. There is no psychological help that I can access that will make me okay if I can't eat or drink multiple days a week because of nausea. And that's where I'm at. Talking on here last night helped a lot, because it pulled me back from the edge. I didn't feel so alone.
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Post by zella on Jan 26, 2016 3:46:12 GMT
So no one has ever determined a cause, of any kind for this nausea? No. Current diagnosis they are working with is variant migraines. There is also something called abdominal epilepsy that needs to be addressed. No one knows why I have this nausea nor how to treat it successfully.
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Post by Chips on Jan 26, 2016 3:57:53 GMT
Zella, ((((hugs))))and praying tomorrow's doctors visit gives some answers or direction.
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Post by Zee on Jan 26, 2016 4:04:01 GMT
If your nausea goes away when you're calm, I think you can safely determine that there is a very large mental component to this. You want a medical admission and you're not getting it, because you need to address your mental issues before all the physical can be fixed. That's I'm sure not what you want to hear, and you probably don't even believe that at this point, but you need to realize that you're doing yourself a lot of harm by doing nothing other than wanting IV meds.
So go get help. Your family needs you. Go get the anxiety and depression addressed. I wish you the best.
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Post by scrapmaven on Jan 26, 2016 4:14:49 GMT
Zee spoke a very serious and nurturing truth. Psychological illness is real illness and right now you are suffering so much that going to a facility that can offer you both grief therapy for complicated grief and physical treatment for your symptoms would be ideal. You have a right to happiness and to feel good. Your sister's death was the catalyst for some very deep hurt and I'm sure you know that psychological distress can set off physical distress and exacerbate illness. I understand the complicated pain that loss brings and you are not alone. Suffering is a part of grief, but suffering to the point that you're ill is not a healthy way to grieve. That is called complicated grief and there is treatment available for it. Though you had a bad experience w/a treatment facility that doesn't mean they're all bad. Just like any form of therapy, you find duds and you find superstars. You need comprehensive care from treating physicians and psychologists. You need to be heard, believed and nurtured. You can spend months at home begging for help and it's not going to get you what you need. Start by telling your gi tmw all that you are going through, emotionally and physically. Tell your truth. I think that after tmw's appt if you don't get some answers and some help you might want to consider going to the ER and laying it on the line. I'm starving to death, losing fluids rapidly due to major nausea, plus my beloved sister died and I can't function right now. Help me. Help me. Those are two of the most powerful and life changing words you can utter and you do need to utter them. Your gi needs to know the depth of your suffering. It takes courage to ask for help and you are brave and can do this. Don't settle. If your gi won't admit you then follow Z*g's advice and get admitted on your own. Losing someone you love so much is not the end of the world, but it feels like everything is lost and the fog is unbearable. Help to restore your life is readily available, but you have to be aggressive. You're a nurse, so you can speak their language. Get what you need tmw. Fear is just part of the process and nothing that you're afraid of could be worse than what you've just been through. Help is just a footstep away. I wish you answers, healing and recovery. All are w/in your grasp. Happiness is very possible and realistic, but first you need to face your darkness one symptom at a time w/people who are trained to show you how to find your whole self.
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Post by ScrapsontheRocks on Jan 26, 2016 4:55:11 GMT
I am out of my depth here but I am sure the Peas who have experience have your best interests at heart. If you need the distraction/ chatting, my time zone helps. I will check back.
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Post by mom on Jan 26, 2016 5:16:34 GMT
zella I hope you know that we care about you. Zee is right. Its painfully obvious to those who are not immediately involved that it is entirely likely your physical symptoms are a direct result of your mental state. I don't say this lightly - until your mental state is cared for, your physical symptoms will not get better. You are (rightfully) grieving the loss of your sister. On a real good day, a person will have a hard time with this. Add in the pain and emotional issues you are dealing with and it quickly becomes overwhelming. But what you are feeling is way above anything we can help you with. We support you but you have to get professional help. I will share something with you (and I guess whoever reads this). Only a handful of close friends IRL know this. I grew up with a mother who struggled with deep depression. Hers initially started as postpartum depression and then quickly became all consuming for her. God bless her - she knew she was mentally ill but wouldn't physically say she needed help. I can close my eyes and still remember my mom saying she wished she was dead. While I have some great memories of my mom, I also have memories of her deep, dark pain. It has left scars on me and my siblings. Please don't do this to your daughter. Show her she is worth having a mom who demanded help. Who did whatever it took to get mentally strong so she could be physically strong. Show her to advocate for her own health - and show her healthy way to grieve. My mom ended up spending time inpatient getting treatment - my dad had her checked into a facility after she had a failed suicide attempt. She would tell you she didn't want to die - she just wanted the pain to go away. It was so hard for her, but in the end, it was worth it. Im sure she would tell you it was the best gift she could give my siblings, dad and I. We got our mom back. I don't know the laws in your country - but is there a way for you or your husband to have yourself committed? I cannot imagine that your doctors would not intervene and help you if they were made aware of how overwhelmed you are. I am praying for you - and your family. <3
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Post by tanya2 on Jan 26, 2016 5:33:44 GMT
sending you huge hugs zella!
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Post by miominmio on Jan 26, 2016 6:31:03 GMT
Big hugs, zella. I hope you can get the help you so desperately need.
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Post by Delta Dawn on Jan 26, 2016 7:21:33 GMT
zella I am sending my love tonight. I wish I had the perfect answer for you. I truly do! I am going to PM you now! Elannah xoxo
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Post by valincal on Jan 26, 2016 7:30:41 GMT
Hugs, love and peace to you zella. I hope you're feeling better soon. xo
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Post by k8smom on Jan 26, 2016 7:54:52 GMT
So no one has ever determined a cause, of any kind for this nausea? No. Current diagnosis they are working with is variant migraines. There is also something called abdominal epilepsy that needs to be addressed. No one knows why I have this nausea nor how to treat it successfully. This diagnosis almost sounds verbatim to what doctors were telling a high school friend of mine, migraines without the pain... she had a stroke shortly there after in her early 40s. You definitely need to be admitted and they need to find answers for you. The very last place you should be right now is sleeping it off in your bed. Hugs to you. Please keep us updated.
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Post by mlynn on Jan 26, 2016 11:53:08 GMT
Zella,
I was in the middle of reading this thread when the kitchen timer called out to me. While in there, I was reminded of what my brother went through about 10 years ago. He was having extreme nausea and no one could figure out what was going on. He went to a number of kinds of doctors, and no one had any insight into what was going on with him. It kept getting worse and worse, and he began vomiting. It was not until he could not take a sip of water without vomiting that they admitted him to the hospital. It turned out that he had pancreatitis. You may want to ask your doctor to check you for that.
Also, my doctor recommended green tea for nausea. It has helped me a lot with my tummy. Right now I seem to have a bug and am back on it. At the moment, mint green tea is a God send.
I hope you get answers much more quickly than my brother did. He was under a lot of stress at the time as he had been laid off from Boeing and had a child to take care of.
Mary
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