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Post by templatequeen on Oct 31, 2014 20:42:40 GMT
She was15. It was time, she was almost blind. And was just not herself Wednesday shaking while she was laying around, not eating much, yesterday she would just pace when she could stand up, she at times had trouble holding her back und up and would just fall down. I keep asking myself, what if she just needed medicine and was sick?  Could I have given her more time??? i hate myself if I could have, she was my best friend she sat with me on the couch everyday, and slept on my side of the bed, she was a Lhasa apso. i got up this morning and my routine was off. I have to say since I have been out of a job for a month it was really nice to be with her every day this past month. The he vets office was great I held her the entire time, but I can't get the image out of my head or the vet telling me what was happening, as she was breathing her last breaths. She said her heart is gone, her brain is gone, she is finally at peace. I can't get that out of my head. I close my eyes that's all I see. I went and ran errands today and she was not here waiting for me, hug your fur babies for me today! I am looking into getting some of her ashes made in to a bead for my pandora bracelet, I remember a pea doing it a few yrs ago.
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Post by myboysnme on Oct 31, 2014 20:47:54 GMT
So very sorry - I just made this decision last month for my 14 year old Lhasa and peas were so supportive. I hope you feel the same support for your little dog. She truly is at peace now, and was loved her entire life. how great is that?
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Post by jeremysgirl on Oct 31, 2014 20:48:20 GMT
I am so sorry for your loss. It's amazing to me just how much of a void is left when a pet dies. I never notice how much they add to my life until they're suddenly gone. I have been there.
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Post by Deleted on Oct 31, 2014 20:49:23 GMT
I'm so sorry  Try not to second-guess yourself. You gave her a good life, lots of love, and you didn't make her suffer needlessly. You were a great dog owner!
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Post by loco coco on Oct 31, 2014 20:59:22 GMT
i am so sorry for your loss  its the hardest thing ive ever done, my thoughts are with you ((hugs))
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Post by gmcwife1 on Oct 31, 2014 21:00:44 GMT
I'm so sorry  We had to put our 10 yr old Samoyed down May 2013 and I was so heartbroken. The emergency vet we took him to was wonderful. They let me, dh and our dogs godmother stay in the room and say our goodbyes. They also sent us a card later. We just got a new puppy and I have fallen into saying Kenai's name when I'm calling all three dogs  Yes, almost 1 1/2 yrs later we still miss him.
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Post by DaisyDoodles on Oct 31, 2014 21:01:25 GMT
I am so sorry for your loss
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Post by ~Susan~ on Oct 31, 2014 21:43:59 GMT
I'm so very sorry for your loss. I had to put down my Lhasa back in July. It was one of the hardest things I have ever had to do. His picture is in my siggy.
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Post by yoursweetwhimsy on Oct 31, 2014 21:48:21 GMT
It is so hard, but it sounds like you made the right decision. I think the worst part is coming home. Their missing presence is overwhelming. Hugs to you..
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Post by jjpswife on Oct 31, 2014 21:49:10 GMT
I'm so very sorry for your loss. It's just absolutely brutal...no way around it. But you DID do the right thing. You really did.
Hold tight to your memories. 15 years is such a long life. She was a lucky lucky girl to be yours.
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Post by Deleted on Oct 31, 2014 21:49:38 GMT
I am so sad for you today. What an awful decision to make but I know you know in your heart it was the right one. We love our pets as much as any other member of the family or maybe more. My dogs wait for me at the door. My girl sleeps on the bed with me. I can imagine how much you loved your baby. I hope and pray it gets better day by day. It's ok to cry. Please remember one day you too will cross the Rainbow Bridge and she will be there waiting for you. 
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Post by eebud on Oct 31, 2014 21:50:44 GMT
 I am so very sorry for the loss of your furry family member. When we lose our pups, it leaves a huge hole in our hearts. Your memories will always be with you.
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Post by mirabelleswalker on Oct 31, 2014 21:53:46 GMT
I'm sorry. It's a very difficult thing to go through, but it was merciful and loving.
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Post by mimima on Oct 31, 2014 21:55:23 GMT
Hugs. I'm sorry
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Post by papersilly on Oct 31, 2014 22:02:48 GMT
so sorry about your doggie and loss. 
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Post by Deleted on Oct 31, 2014 23:11:22 GMT
I am so sorry. Hugs to you.
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Post by Chips on Oct 31, 2014 23:15:42 GMT
I am so sorry ((((hugs)))) to loose someone who loves us so unconditionally is so hard and painful. Remember the good time you had together <3
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Post by Deleted on Oct 31, 2014 23:32:05 GMT
I am so sorry. It is so heartbreaking. hugs to you.
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Post by Mary Kay Lady on Oct 31, 2014 23:43:00 GMT
I'm so sorry for the loss of your sweet fur baby.
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Post by Dixie Lou on Oct 31, 2014 23:45:07 GMT
I am so sorry! You did the right thing and she was feeling loved when she passed. We have had many, many dogs and I want to tell you how I learned when it was "time." Rowdy was a tri-colored sheltie. He was only twelve years old. He "suddenly" got really old and I wondered if it was getting close to the end. He wasn't all that old and it came on suddenly though so it took some convincing that he was going to die. He was on several different medications. I would put them inside soft treats and he loved them. Even when he stopped eating all together he would still take his medicine treats. One night he would not take them and I forced him. I got to thinking a few minutes later that I would NOT force him to take his meds anymore. So the next day when he wouldn't take them I didn't make him. For the past week he would get under the bed and we would have to lift the mattress up and get him out. I would carry him out to the front yard to go to the bathroom but once out there he would stand and go potty then I would carry him back inside. But he would still take his meds until that one night. I am not going to give the gory details but when DD got home from school (it's been many years now so I cant remember exactly how long it was) she called me at work and told me how sick he was. I rushed home and yes, he was very sick. So we gathered up the rest of the family and all five of us took him to the vet expecting to have him put down. The vet said yeah he's going to die soon but didn't think he was as sick as I did. He gave him a shot and said that would settle his stomach. Rowdy had to have a bath and the vet said yes to give him one. I asked about refilling his meds for the next month and he said not to. SO, we took him home and gave him a bath. Again, I am skipping details but that bath made me very sad. We made him a soft bed on the living room floor and my 11 year old slept next to him. I considered calling the vet's emergency number to see if he would come over and put him down but didn't. I told my 11 year old that we would take him in the morning if he made it through the night. Rowdy was a very "private" dog and didn't like snuggles and did want to be left alone a lot anyway so I didn't hover and went to bed. I woke up around 3:00 a.m. and he had passed away. I felt so horrible that I didn't end his suffering the evening before when we were at the vet. I felt so bad for not being there with him when he died. Since then we have had three dogs that we've put down. I still think of Rowdy and the signs that should have told me that it had to be done: not eating, having to be carried, having little if any energy, possibly being in pain or diarrhea, etc. My little poodle Marie had bladder cancer for years. The vet was always surprised how well she was doing. Then it all changed. The vet wanted to keep her at the clinic over the weekend and I talked him into letting her come home with me. He sent her home on an i.v. The next Monday they checked her blood results again and when her levels were getting higher even though she was on an i.v., he said she wasn't going to get better. I rushed home from work and took her and had her put down. I needed that weekend so see that she wasn't going to get better BUT I knew better than to wait until she was so sick like Rowdy. I also knew that I gave her that one last chance. I know this was long and if you've made it this far, bless your heart. This was therapeutic for me as I miss my Rowdy and Marie (and Dustie, another long story!) so much even now. I love my dogs as my children but I am glad I learned to trust my instincts on when it's time...and for your sweet pup, it was time.
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Post by Deleted on Oct 31, 2014 23:56:51 GMT
She was15. It was time, she was almost blind. And was just not herself Wednesday shaking while she was laying around, not eating much, yesterday she would just pace when she could stand up, she at times had trouble holding her back und up and would just fall down. I keep asking myself, what if she just needed medicine and was sick?  Could I have given her more time??? i hate myself if I could have, she was my best friend she sat with me on the couch everyday, and slept on my side of the bed, she was a Lhasa apso. i got up this morning and my routine was off. I have to say since I have been out of a job for a month it was really nice to be with her every day this past month. The he vets office was great I held her the entire time, but I can't get the image out of my head or the vet telling me what was happening, as she was breathing her last breaths. She said her heart is gone, her brain is gone, she is finally at peace. I can't get that out of my head. I close my eyes that's all I see. I went and ran errands today and she was not here waiting for me, hug your fur babies for me today! I am looking into getting some of her ashes made in to a bead for my pandora bracelet, I remember a pea doing it a few yrs ago. I'm so sorry for your loss. It is always so hard to make the decision and see it through. :*(
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Post by calgal08 on Nov 1, 2014 0:06:09 GMT
My heart breaks for you. Don't second guess yourself (I know, so much easier said than done). We've made this decision for 2 wonderful 4-legged-kids, it's the hardest thing you can do. The last one was 2 years ago October 1st, and I still cry about him (crying as I type this). You'll never every forget her. She will always be with you.
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Post by tracylynn on Nov 1, 2014 0:11:31 GMT
I'm in tears for you. I went through this 7 months ago (tomorrow) and I second guessed myself for days. I know it was the right thing, but I kept wondering "what if". It was the first time I'd ever had to make that decision - I'd had him for almost 14 years and got him when I was 25. It's still hard. I still remember everything about that morning and being at the vet. I really just want THAT memory to go away so I can remember the good things and not the last day. It gets easier with time - I promise. But I'm still sad. I'm not sad as often though and it's easier to smile and feel happy when I see his picture these days. Last month was the first month I actually forgot about the anniversary. When I realized a day later I was surprised.
I'm very sorry for your loss.
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Post by mystuffandnat on Nov 1, 2014 0:14:34 GMT
Bubba sends you a 'nice kiss', not to slobby. I send a hug.
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Post by peabay on Nov 1, 2014 0:19:23 GMT
I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. That would break my heart.
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Post by miss_lizzie on Nov 1, 2014 0:19:35 GMT
I'm so sorry. It's such a hard decision to make, but you loved her enough to make it. No one could have loved her more than you did, and she felt that love every day. Hugs to you.
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Post by marianne on Nov 1, 2014 0:33:09 GMT
I'm so, so sorry for your loss. Prolonging the inevitable may have made you feel better, but it wouldn't have added to the quality of your pup's life. It was her time. Please be gentle with yourself, and I hope you find some comfort in knowing you did the right and kindest thing for your girl.
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Post by Charlotte on Nov 1, 2014 1:01:42 GMT
So sorry for your loss.
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Post by gailoh on Nov 1, 2014 1:22:51 GMT
hugs...it is hard ...
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Post by onlywork2scrap on Nov 1, 2014 1:56:45 GMT
I am so, so sorry. I could have written your post almost word for word and it's brought me to tears. I put my 9 year old lab down several months ago and still have a hard time with it. She had cancer and it wasn't treatable. We raise beagles and I always have a lab so I've been down this road before and it's hard. I will tell you that you won't ever get over it, but hopefully, it will get easier. One thing you have to remember is that it is the last good thing you do for your dog. I wish you peace.
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