8/6 Update- Please pray
Jul 22, 2022 19:44:55 GMT
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Post by mom on Jul 22, 2022 19:44:55 GMT
8/6 UPDATE
Thanks for checking in on us. DS went from ICU to a regular room and then to the psych ward for a few days while they lined out his medicine. He is doing ok --- he went back to his apartment with his girlfriend when he got out.
Mentally, he struggled his first day back in the real world. His anxiety has been high but he seems to working through it. He has met with his therapist + other doctors this past week and seems to be doing the hard work of working through the issues. Because of his seizures, he still isn't driving just yet so DH and I have been taking him to all of his appointments. Physically, he is getting better. His seizures have stopped and his memory is improving. He told me tonight that he read for about 45 minuets last night and remembered what he was reading so that is a big improvement. His liver is struggling still but is showing signs of starting to repair itself. Friday the Dr stressed how important it is that he not drink or take any other medicines unless they are prescribed as to not add to his problem.
He swears he didn't really want to overdose, but for whatever reason he couldn't stop the suicide thoughts. His dr has told him that he can never ever have Wellbutrin again as it just really is not good for him. He's on Lexapro now and seems to be accepting it well. This weekend we have a party for my dads 75th birthday and DS1 volunteered to go get his hair and beard trimmed so he'd look nice with all of our family coming into town --- normally he wants longer hair and its a fight to get him to trim it. So hopefully this is a good sign that things are on the upward swing for him.
As I said, he is still with his girlfriend and honestly, I am not sure why. I was hoping he would get away from here but as of now, that's not his plan. I sat them both down the other day and told them that if they truly loved each other (they dont) then they would both get into therapy separately and as a couple. They are not good for each other and absolutely bring out the worst in each other. We will see if she goes to therapy. I doubt she will. His girlfriend drove him to my dads party tonight and they were there for about an hour so it was nice to have DS1 out there with all of our family.
Thank you all for the love and support. I have been reading all the comments and messages but honestly. I have been struggling with it all. Its all so hard. I want to believe that he didn't want to actually die...but I am also afraid to not believe that he wants to, you know? I am really hoping this was the wake up call that he needs to be active in getting his life and mental health together but I am also realistic. I suspect there is going to be a lot of pain before this gets better.
Anyway, thank you all. I appreciate your thoughts and checking in on us so much!
7/27 Tuesday AM Update
DS is getting moved to a regular room today. They did an EEG yesterday again and it showed no seizures, so we are hoping that part is over. He is awake and talking. As of now, the only signs that anything happened is his short term memory and he is having trouble reading. In the past, he was an avid reader. Now, he can only focus and read for about 7-8 min before he's forgotten what he has read. His Dr feels like all of this could get better the further we get away from his incident. His liver is still struggling (as to be expectedD) and his kidneys are improving. Again, both of these should get better with time.
Tentatively he will go from this hospital to an inpatient place to help with his mental issues. His psychiatrist thinks the medicine he recently changed to could have played a big role in him being suicidal. Three weeks ago they had upped both his Abilify + Wellbutrin and both can increase any risk for suicide. Never before has he been suicidal....depressed, yes. But never talking about suicide before. His Dr thinks that when DS girlfriend made the comment that she wished he'd just die, that it 'clicked' something in his brain and he didn't stop to think twice.
DS is cooperating and going to get help voluntarily (thankfully). So I hope that this is a big step to getting back to a good place. We are still pushing for him not to go back to him home with his girlfriend, but as of right now, he thinks he will be ok there. I am hopeful that once he goes to inpatient treatment and gets back on new meds, that he will see how dangerous she is.
Thank you all from the bottom of my heart. I know we still have a long road ahead of us, but I also know we aren't alone and will get through this.
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Thank you all for your prayers. He is still in ICU and hopefully will be moving to a regular room tomorrow or Tuesday. Thank you for the offers to send us something --- we are good but we appreciate the thought! Our local friends have stepped up and truly taken care of us through this. My DH was on a fishing trip off the coast of Mexico when this happened so I was alone from about 1:45am Friday when the hospital called until about 7am when I thought to call my best friend. Since then, we've had someone with us the entire time and my DH was able to get home by Friday evening.
Friday was going to be a hard day anyway ---- it would have been my daughters 18th birthday. But to spend Friday in the same ER/ICU that I was in 18 years ago to the day, pleading with God again not to let my baby die, was almost surreal. But we got through it. This was going to be the first birthday that DH and I spent separated and after everything that happened with my son, I made him promise never to leave me by myself on my daughters birthday again. (real mature, I know).
Anyway, thank you for the love, the prayers and if you found my phone number, thanks for the texts and calls. Y'all are the best.
7/24
My son is awake and talking though he is still having seizures, though they are less frequent and smaller. He is still in ICU though.
His girlfriend initially withheld information about what medications he injested and it delayed the drs helping him. 😡
Also, she saw him take the dozens of pills from his 2 bipolar meds and then went to bed, leaving him alone until he was violently seizing in their living room. 😡😡
He had had no memory of the days before and recalls nothing from being in the hospital. Weirdly, he does recall the fight and all the things she said to him.
He will be going to get inpatient help with bipolar and he is agreeing to go instead if is forcing him. Just don’t know when that will be.
He is out of the woods as far as immediate danger. His liver and kidneys are messed up but hopefully they will line themselves out with time.
Thank you for praying for him and us. Mental illness is no joke and thankfully, he is open to receiving help now.
7/23 5am update
Thank you. It’s been over 24 hrs now and he’s still not awake but his seizures have slowed down significantly so that’s something good. This am they are going to do more testing. We are still trying to get to the bottom of what really happened and what happened in the hours before. He was living with his girlfriend and the details she gave us do not match up with what we know to be true. He has struggled with his mental health in the past but we thought he was doing ok.
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My DS1 is in ICU after a suicide attempt. Please pray. He is not doing well and we are not sure how much damage has been done.
I’m scared. I’m angry. I just feel so helpless.
If we are friends on Facebook, please don’t post there about this. Not many in my family know yet.
Thanks for checking in on us. DS went from ICU to a regular room and then to the psych ward for a few days while they lined out his medicine. He is doing ok --- he went back to his apartment with his girlfriend when he got out.
Mentally, he struggled his first day back in the real world. His anxiety has been high but he seems to working through it. He has met with his therapist + other doctors this past week and seems to be doing the hard work of working through the issues. Because of his seizures, he still isn't driving just yet so DH and I have been taking him to all of his appointments. Physically, he is getting better. His seizures have stopped and his memory is improving. He told me tonight that he read for about 45 minuets last night and remembered what he was reading so that is a big improvement. His liver is struggling still but is showing signs of starting to repair itself. Friday the Dr stressed how important it is that he not drink or take any other medicines unless they are prescribed as to not add to his problem.
He swears he didn't really want to overdose, but for whatever reason he couldn't stop the suicide thoughts. His dr has told him that he can never ever have Wellbutrin again as it just really is not good for him. He's on Lexapro now and seems to be accepting it well. This weekend we have a party for my dads 75th birthday and DS1 volunteered to go get his hair and beard trimmed so he'd look nice with all of our family coming into town --- normally he wants longer hair and its a fight to get him to trim it. So hopefully this is a good sign that things are on the upward swing for him.
As I said, he is still with his girlfriend and honestly, I am not sure why. I was hoping he would get away from here but as of now, that's not his plan. I sat them both down the other day and told them that if they truly loved each other (they dont) then they would both get into therapy separately and as a couple. They are not good for each other and absolutely bring out the worst in each other. We will see if she goes to therapy. I doubt she will. His girlfriend drove him to my dads party tonight and they were there for about an hour so it was nice to have DS1 out there with all of our family.
Thank you all for the love and support. I have been reading all the comments and messages but honestly. I have been struggling with it all. Its all so hard. I want to believe that he didn't want to actually die...but I am also afraid to not believe that he wants to, you know? I am really hoping this was the wake up call that he needs to be active in getting his life and mental health together but I am also realistic. I suspect there is going to be a lot of pain before this gets better.
Anyway, thank you all. I appreciate your thoughts and checking in on us so much!
7/27 Tuesday AM Update
DS is getting moved to a regular room today. They did an EEG yesterday again and it showed no seizures, so we are hoping that part is over. He is awake and talking. As of now, the only signs that anything happened is his short term memory and he is having trouble reading. In the past, he was an avid reader. Now, he can only focus and read for about 7-8 min before he's forgotten what he has read. His Dr feels like all of this could get better the further we get away from his incident. His liver is still struggling (as to be expectedD) and his kidneys are improving. Again, both of these should get better with time.
Tentatively he will go from this hospital to an inpatient place to help with his mental issues. His psychiatrist thinks the medicine he recently changed to could have played a big role in him being suicidal. Three weeks ago they had upped both his Abilify + Wellbutrin and both can increase any risk for suicide. Never before has he been suicidal....depressed, yes. But never talking about suicide before. His Dr thinks that when DS girlfriend made the comment that she wished he'd just die, that it 'clicked' something in his brain and he didn't stop to think twice.
DS is cooperating and going to get help voluntarily (thankfully). So I hope that this is a big step to getting back to a good place. We are still pushing for him not to go back to him home with his girlfriend, but as of right now, he thinks he will be ok there. I am hopeful that once he goes to inpatient treatment and gets back on new meds, that he will see how dangerous she is.
Thank you all from the bottom of my heart. I know we still have a long road ahead of us, but I also know we aren't alone and will get through this.
______________________________________________________________________
Thank you all for your prayers. He is still in ICU and hopefully will be moving to a regular room tomorrow or Tuesday. Thank you for the offers to send us something --- we are good but we appreciate the thought! Our local friends have stepped up and truly taken care of us through this. My DH was on a fishing trip off the coast of Mexico when this happened so I was alone from about 1:45am Friday when the hospital called until about 7am when I thought to call my best friend. Since then, we've had someone with us the entire time and my DH was able to get home by Friday evening.
Friday was going to be a hard day anyway ---- it would have been my daughters 18th birthday. But to spend Friday in the same ER/ICU that I was in 18 years ago to the day, pleading with God again not to let my baby die, was almost surreal. But we got through it. This was going to be the first birthday that DH and I spent separated and after everything that happened with my son, I made him promise never to leave me by myself on my daughters birthday again. (real mature, I know).
Anyway, thank you for the love, the prayers and if you found my phone number, thanks for the texts and calls. Y'all are the best.
7/24
My son is awake and talking though he is still having seizures, though they are less frequent and smaller. He is still in ICU though.
His girlfriend initially withheld information about what medications he injested and it delayed the drs helping him. 😡
Also, she saw him take the dozens of pills from his 2 bipolar meds and then went to bed, leaving him alone until he was violently seizing in their living room. 😡😡
He had had no memory of the days before and recalls nothing from being in the hospital. Weirdly, he does recall the fight and all the things she said to him.
He will be going to get inpatient help with bipolar and he is agreeing to go instead if is forcing him. Just don’t know when that will be.
He is out of the woods as far as immediate danger. His liver and kidneys are messed up but hopefully they will line themselves out with time.
Thank you for praying for him and us. Mental illness is no joke and thankfully, he is open to receiving help now.
7/23 5am update
Thank you. It’s been over 24 hrs now and he’s still not awake but his seizures have slowed down significantly so that’s something good. This am they are going to do more testing. We are still trying to get to the bottom of what really happened and what happened in the hours before. He was living with his girlfriend and the details she gave us do not match up with what we know to be true. He has struggled with his mental health in the past but we thought he was doing ok.
________
My DS1 is in ICU after a suicide attempt. Please pray. He is not doing well and we are not sure how much damage has been done.
I’m scared. I’m angry. I just feel so helpless.
If we are friends on Facebook, please don’t post there about this. Not many in my family know yet.
