I just don't know how to move on

I wish I could say I know how you feel because I really don't. I can imagine it is just a grief that is just so sad and hard. I'm so sorry for your loss and I hope you will be able to find some kind of peace. I know the peas have suggested some good help here.

There is a lady on TikTok who is 'famous' in that world I guess. Her son was killed about six weeks ago. She goes on there, I think, every day.. you can see her good days and bad. But she always has some kind of message or just venting. Maybe listening to a few of her posts maybe she can bring a bit of experience from her end. Her name is Mamma Tot @shoelover99.

I am so sorry. I cannot even imagine. But like many others have suggested, please find a good therapist. You deserve and need professional support to help you manage such a heartbreaking loss. 

First, be gentle with yourself. There can’t be anything worse than losing a child.

Our very good friends lost their son 3 years ago. He was my son’s childhood best friend and we were all so devastated. I struggled so hard at times to know what to say because I didn’t want to upset them. One day she told me that she was struggling because people had stopped talking about him and she was afraid he was being forgotten. Since then, whenever I come across a picture of him or a funny memory, I always share it with her. Sometimes we laugh and sometimes we cry. But overall, I am just so glad she told me she wanted to talk about him. If you want to talk, please let your friends and family know that. They probably want to talk about him too but are afraid of hurting you. And if you don’t want to talk, tell them that too.

I am so sorry. And I k ow how inadequate that statement is. But I do not have advice, only sympathy.

Hugs

no other words can express this better for me as well. <hugs> I'm sitting here in tears for you, mama. So so so much love and hugs and prayers for some small comfort, some relief today from the pain. 

I'm so sorry for everything you are going through. I hope you can find a good counselor and/or support group. I also hope that you always feel free to express your feelings here.

I think it's so sweet that your daughter flew home to be with you on your son's birthday. You and your daughters will be in my prayers.

You are expecting the impossible. I doubt you will ever move on. Don't even expect to. You lost your child. There is nothing to compare to this.

I'm sorry your struggling. We know someone who lost all 3 of her children in an accident, she said the only thing that helps is good therapy. Have you tried that? or maybe a support group? It sucks that this is reality for you

I wish I had magic words to ease your pain, but I can't imagine your pain. I am so sorry!

You are living through every parent’s worst nightmare. I’m so very sorry that this is your reality. Since you have said that you think your daughters are also holding in their feelings it would probably be good for all of you to take part in some type of grief counseling to help you find your way through your extreme pain. Keeping all those strong feelings bottled up isn’t good. Vent here for sure, but I think being able to share with a local group of people who have also been there would help a great deal. I care about you and will have your family in my thoughts. ((HUGS))

I am so sorry. I hope you can find something that helps. Grief is so awful.

Really Red I don't really have anything to add what has been said before, but I do offer my cell if you ever need to reach out, if you feel alone and you cannot bear it. Please, call or text me. It's in our DMs. Hugs and love to you...

I'm so sorry. I have tried to respond to this post several times, but I never know what to say.
You don't have to move on. You really do not. It's been such a short time since your son died, and the grief you are experiencing is to be expected. Be gentle with yourself, and don't expect to "move on." What you will do is eventually find a way to live without your precious son and weave him and his memory into your life, but moving on is not really a thing. Don't let anyone tell you it is.

Love and hugs to you.

Everyone who suggests getting counseling or support is definitely spot on. That's not so much to forget, but for you to be able to continue through your life. But don't pressure yourself that you have to be meeting some timeline. There are days when it won't weigh on you as heavily and that's very okay. And there are days when grief will sneak up on you and slap you in the face. Build yourself a support network whether it's others who have been there or friends who are willing to hear you out when you need that, so that when those days come when your loss really weighs on you you can reach out to somebody, whether you need to vent,cry, or share your memories, or simply to assure yourself that your wonderful son is not forgotten. The peas have got your back for sure, and will listen when you need to share.((hugs))