aKathy's what's for Dinner. 8/14

scrapmaven Yuck to furry little creatures under the house!

I'm ok today. This cold is annoying but every day with the grief seems to get better. We rough drafted her obituary yesterday. I was going to read it to my dad and he said he wasn't ready.

Dad bought my sister and BIL a new tv that has voice remote function. Their TV was old and dark and he couldn't see it very well. He's excited about that so I'm glad he has one thing to be excited about anyway.

I think we're going to lunch today so he can get out of the house. My sister is taking her bereavement days now to spend more time with him. I'm taking mine around the time of the memorial since i don't have a lot of extra days off. We'll have a lot of company during that time so it made more sense to take off then.

Day by day is how we're taking it right now.

Edited to add: Dinner is the rotisserie chicken my sister picked up from Costco yesterday. 

Dinner. Again, I ask why do we have to have it every night? I am slugging my way through again today. I went home yesterday at 2:15. I warmed up one of my black bean tacos and have to say, fresh out of the AF, it was much better than the night before. So fresh is best. But I finally got settled and thought about a nap. Should I set my alarm? No, I won't sleep that long. 3:15 to 5:30! Jumped up and fed the dogs and got to choir. But last night was a bust on sleeping. I didn't have my watch on or my "oura" ring so I have no record and I hate that. I would really like to see just how horrible the rating would have been.

Doing financials (again) for the meeting this Sunday today. Handing out paychecks! (yay) and making my list of things I need to do around the house. The pine straw is falling like crazy. I need to blow off the driveway.

I keep seeing that bean spread sandwich that jeremysgirl made earlier this week. I have pickled onions in the fridge. AND I think I have a can of cannelini beans in the pantry. I need to make that. So dinner will be either that or a tofu edamame bowl. And again, it may be a bowl of cereal. If I even have cereal in the cabinet.

Ok, real talk here. For those of you that have lost a DH or partner has this happened? You all have heard me talk that I just haven't had that gut wrenching break down grief thing happen. And the reason behind that. However, Monday night at some point, something woke me up. It felt like a hand brushing my shoulder. You know like a rollover during the night kind of thing. And I just drifted back off. Then I could feel a large mass behind me. And for just that moment, I thought Cliff...and reached over to feel. It was, of course, the dog. But gosh, just for a minute. And then last night, we started rehearsal for Christmas music and what we are singing at Carnegie Hall. It just hit me that he will not be here this Christmas and I had to leave for few minutes to collect myself. Yes, I know this is all normal. My brain knows that but my heart just opens a bit here and there. Ok, enough. Back to the day.

Hey all - I really need to get some paperwork done today, but I'm procrastinating like crazy! Dinner tonight is.... something with pork chops. Maybe I'll punt and have my husband make dinner. I had been taking a break from Blue Apron but am remembering the one thing I like about it - not thinking about WHAT to make. At least half the battle. Have a good day all!

Not quite the same, but there are times when I'm sure ExH is sleeping next to me and it's the dog. We were together for 20 years so that's a long time to sleep in the same bed.

I'm sorry that is opening up your heart a bit too much.

Hugs.

This weekend? I will completely validate you. Who knows? Maybe it would be fun to get away but at the same time, what you have said and you want to stay near your dad. No problem doing that either. I think your text is good enough. Stay home.

I know that I'm overly sensitive and I had planned to be there but the timing just isn't right and I hope they'll understand. I'm sure they will.

My cleaning gal was here, and I had no errands to do , so just walked my girl and hung out out of the way. She doesn't clean the office/craft room so It was easy to hang out here.
I got a BD card made for DH's nephew. So that is done!

I have a pedi appt at 2:15..I'll leave a bit early and stop for an iced coffee at SB on my way!

Dinner will be salmon, corn on the cobb and some green beans that need to be used, so that will be easy!

dinner is left over lemon chicken and salad early as we are going to a concert tonight. I have been to pharmacy, travel agent, gas station and grocery store before 9:30 am.. now time to go back in basement and find more backpacking gear and get my crap together for tomorrow's flight.

foggy foggy day

We finally had rain today after a monthlong dry spell. The clouds have cleared and we are back to blue skies and sunshine. I’m not sure if it was enough rain to assist with all the wild fires but sure hope do.

Took advantage of the gray skies this morning and did our running around, errands, groceries, etc. I hate going to town when the sun is out, feels like I’m wasting the day.

Tonight will be kanji chicken seasoned with Montreal steak spice. One of our faves.

Im sure they will understand

They both understood and validated how I felt. 

I texted my dog sitter and said I wasn't going out of town due to my mom's passing and she called me right away. She was so sweet and said if I need anything at all, to call her even at midnight. I thought that was so sweet!

Here you go! I added rosemary and parsley to mine.

ETA: I did not use 1/4 cup of liquid.  I wanted it thicker.  So adjust to your preferences. 

Thank you jeremysgirl - I'm almost positive I have a can of Great Northern beans in my pantry and if I do, I'll have a side of dip with carrots with dinner (as well as my leftover broccoli salad - heck I might not need the beans on toast at this rate!)