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Post by ccookwood on Apr 22, 2016 17:56:02 GMT
FYI when you walk around like your life is perfect ALL THE TIME...And it's not, it sucks. I tend to walk around like I live the life everyone wants always happy, great kid wonderful Dh.
In reality right now my life is going to hell and I'm continuing the freaking smile on my face routine.
In reality I want to scream, stamp my feet and cry.
I've learned in the last 25 years of marriage we don't share our problems with anyone so I keep it all to myself, this has always been dh's way of doing things and I've somehow adopted it.
So off to face the world smiling....
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StephDRebel
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Post by StephDRebel on Apr 22, 2016 17:56:51 GMT
fuck that.
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Post by Delta Dawn on Apr 22, 2016 18:00:36 GMT
See Steph's response. It applies. Stomp your feet, don't smile eff the smiling BS and yell if you need to. You aren't your husband and your husband hasn't stolen your identity. He may think he has. He would be wrong. I can't help you on the crying thing. I have gone through boxes of Kleenex over the last 2 months. I haven't decided if it helps or doesn't. It might but it gives me a headache. Punch a wall or something. That has been *proven* by Two Peas to help, too.
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Post by Deleted on Apr 22, 2016 18:04:24 GMT
If you are that unhappy, then it's time to change and start confiding in someone you trust, be it a relative, friend and/or professional.
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scrapaddie
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Post by scrapaddie on Apr 22, 2016 18:06:45 GMT
You don't need to talk to everybody, but you do need to talk to somebody.
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Post by JustCallMeMommy on Apr 22, 2016 18:07:00 GMT
I can relate. I kind of wish I had been more open earlier so that when I did have serious problems, it wasn't a surprise to everyone. When I finally had something I really needed to tell people, it was like it came out of the blue. To make it worse, the first time I told someone, I blurted it out in a totally unexpected way (someone asked a simple, innocent question and I burst into tears).
So, I would encourage you to talk to someone. It will give you what sounds like a much needed outlet, and it might help you come to grips with your own feelings about your situation.
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Post by Deleted on Apr 22, 2016 18:18:51 GMT
Find a counselor/therapist that you can confide in.
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PaperAngel
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Post by PaperAngel on Apr 22, 2016 18:39:07 GMT
I think many people, especially men, adopt the "don't let 'em see you sweat" approach & believe discussing your problems is a sign of weakness. IMHO it's unhealthy, & people often isolate themselves from others for fear of revealing the truth or shattering their image. Everyone has ups & downs in his or her life; no one is immune. Not acknowledging them does not mean they don't exist, while seeking advice from others allows you to learn from their experiences & find solutions.
Best wishes on resolving your current issues & finding peace & happiness.
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Post by jeremysgirl on Apr 22, 2016 18:44:49 GMT
At the very least, reach out to a therapist. A good therapist is worth their weight in gold and I'm not ashamed to say that I have utilized one at various points in my life to work through things.
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Post by Deleted on Apr 22, 2016 18:49:08 GMT
Does anyone ever really believe that any living breathing person actually has it all together and has no muck and mess in their lives?
You'll feel a lot better when you stop being so worried about what everyone else thinks about you and your marriage.
Get some wise counsel and be honest.
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Post by chlerbie on Apr 22, 2016 18:55:50 GMT
Those are rules that you've set for yourself--and the only one who's enforcing it is you.
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Post by ladytrisha on Apr 22, 2016 18:59:03 GMT
I can tell you from watching my ex-SIL's marriage implode, it does no good at all to put on the show. We watched them do it for years - we KNEW there were problems (though none of us knew just how bad until years after the divorce) - but they were always the perfect family show where everything was lovely, with expensive vacations, and all the excessiveness that went with it and the family photos to show they were perfect.
And then they weren't.
They didn't bother with therapy; and with our family being the polar opposite said "yup, we've done therapy, our kid went to therapy" I have a lifetime of issues with food being the comfort while inside I was dying - putting on a show for some other person just wasn't in me - sometimes we live in chaos, sometimes I'm barely hanging on, and sometimes life is just okay - and that is good (even with my crazy MIL situation).
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Post by mlynn on Apr 22, 2016 19:03:21 GMT
Go for a long drive by yourself and scream and rant and sob and get all that pent up emotion out. Then let someone in...be it a friend, a relative, a pastor,etc.
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Post by lesley on Apr 22, 2016 19:15:35 GMT
Don't live a lie. You need to identify the life that you want, not your husband, not your family, not your friends. Because one day you'll be old, or you'll be ill, and you will have so many regrets that you didn't make changes sooner. And while it's never too late to make them, ask yourself - what are the benefits of procrastination? Find someone to talk to who can help you find who you are and what you want, and will help you make the changes you need.
And come here anytime - there's always someone who can identify with what you're going through, and there will always be a whole squad cheering you on.
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Post by oldcrow on Apr 22, 2016 19:18:52 GMT
You don't need to talk to everybody, but you do need to talk to somebody. Sorry I screwed up the quote. I wanted to insert that scrapaddie is correct. I don't know what happened to my post so I really screwed up. I wanted to say that the somebody you talk to should be a professional. When you have spent your life hiding your unhappiness it can be a shock to family and friends, even when they have guessed that things are not as perfect as you have tried to make them look. The last thing you want is to become the topic of conversation on top of the problems you already have. Obviously things need to change so you be the change. Take charge of your life because no matter what it is your life and no one else's.
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Post by lily on Apr 22, 2016 19:31:40 GMT
Breaking dishes is very cathartic!
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Post by Gravity on Apr 22, 2016 19:52:30 GMT
((HUGS))
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Post by disneypal on Apr 22, 2016 20:14:59 GMT
I am sorry you are going through a difficult time and it is very hard when you walk through life as if everything is hunky-dory
I can feel for you. I come to work every day with a smile on my face and say all is fine but in reality I am still grieving the deaths of my father and brother. It is so hard but I know my co-workers don't want to see me sad and hurting or be a downer to everyone so I just tell them I am fine, when I'm not.
Do you have someone in your life that you can confide in? If so, it will help to get some things off your chest.
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Post by J u l e e on Apr 22, 2016 20:21:01 GMT
Does anyone ever really believe that any living breathing person actually has it all together and has no muck and mess in their lives. No. OP, you're probably not fooling as many people as you think you are.
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Post by maryland on Apr 22, 2016 20:46:59 GMT
I have a couple close friends that I share things with and it always helps. When I have to vent, I talk to them and realize they have the same issues! I wish my husband had more close friends that he could confide it. I always think that when you have someone you can talk to, you realize that things may not be as bad as you think, and that others have gone through something too and could offer advice.
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Post by freebird on Apr 22, 2016 20:56:40 GMT
I think you should be yourself and let the chips fall where they may. Whatever happens is the right answer. And someone to talk to would really help.
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Post by LeaP on Apr 22, 2016 21:04:59 GMT
More {{hugs}}. A journey starts with a single step. You shared here. If it made you feel better share more.
I have a friend who puts on the perfect facade while her life is far from perfect. It is very isolating because those of us who wear our imperfections on our sleeves don't share our warts and all with perfect people.
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Post by raindancer on Apr 22, 2016 21:12:24 GMT
I'm sorry OP. I am not an over sharer, and I won't share minute details, but girlfriends that I can confide in and trust are so very important to me.
Even if it's not my deepest darkest secret, getting some things off your chest is vital to being healthy and happy. I hope you find an outlet.
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Post by mallie on Apr 22, 2016 21:13:34 GMT
Does anyone ever really believe that any living breathing person actually has it all together and has no muck and mess in their lives. No. OP, you're probably not fooling as many people as you think you are. Ehh... People mostly see what they want to see. Generally what they want to see is what makes them happy or their lives easier/better. So unless the person is the sadistic type that seeing the tears behind the smile would make them happy, most people are perfectly content to not see other people's struggles. That's especially true if you're the person who has gone around with the smile, being optimistic, etc. When you try to express your struggles, most people turn away because you're not giving them what they want any more. Hence, why a therapist is probably best.
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Post by mom on Apr 22, 2016 21:14:43 GMT
I'm sorry this is your life right now.
I urge you to find someone to confide in. Your health will thank you! (and feel free to message me. My life is screwed up too and I wont pass any judgements!)
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Post by brandy327 on Apr 22, 2016 21:27:43 GMT
My in-laws were like that and I swear it had a big part to do with FIL early passing last year. He was MISERABLE in the marriage and she was oblivious. But to everyone else, it was a marriage made in heaven. Uh no.
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Post by Kerri W on Apr 22, 2016 21:34:50 GMT
I'm sorry you're struggling. ((Hugs))
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