In two days..update on page 3

Thank you everyone for your kind words and hugs. They are greatly appreciated

I survived yesterday. Monday was probably worse but thats par for the course. seems the day before is always worse than the actual day. I knocked out some more things on my to do list to deal with the multiple stressors. Slowly that list is getting smaller. The girl and I met my sister and her kids for lunch. We went to the mall and while we didn't find the dress deal of the century, I didn't buy out the joint either Had one small moment in the book store at about the time it all fell apart. I try to ignore it but I get a panic feeling and I can't breathe. I must get pale too because several people asked if I was okay. I found my daughter in her favorite section and asked for a hug. Without a word she did so and that helped. She's amazing. We have come so far in the years since we lost her dad. I never thought we would get to a place where she would hug me again but yet here we are.

Came home, laid down for a bit to recharge and then off to tackling the list. We are going to DMV today to get her permit and change my ID to a local one. Today is much calmer and I feel like I can handle things again. Funny how 48 hours can change things. I also found it funny how several friends thought yesterday was the day I should be available to help them through their own lives and issues. Sorry but yesterday is my one day to be selfish. I couldn't handle their drama and issues. I just told them I would be available today and they are pouting They will get over it just like they think I should be over it by now too.

So off we go to try and find our way through year five. Please let it be easier than the last four. I really need a break from this.