Could someone just talk to me? Feeling so, so down.

In the long run, you may end up being right and they may end up being wrong!  As long as you do what you believe is the right thing, there is no need to be humiliated (I know it's easier said than done).Stay true to yourself and do the right thing.  

I'm so sorry you were let down by a friend.  Sometimes people protect themselves at the expense of others.  That doesn't mean it's right , but it shows you who they really are, that they don't deserve your trust in the future. 

Hoping something good happens for you soon!  

Glad you came here to chat when you needed someone to talk to - please do that anytime you need to!

Ah Zella, that sucks. I'm sorry your friends didn't have the balls to talk over any issues they were having with how you handled things. Voting you out with no discussion was spineless.

When totally shitty things happen to me I always try to hold the thought that in five or ten years it won't even be a blip on my radar. That doesn't always help but it is always true.     I hope this particular situation brings new opportunities.

I don't think that day will come....I still think of my niece every day. She died in 1988


So zella Those theatre people are asswipes! You are amazing! Tell us more about how your new treatments are working. You mentioned it the other day.

Thinking of you zella ((hugs))

Zella, I'm not good at this, I don't have the social skills go say the right thing when people are hurting so I mostly go silently on. But you are always so open and honest about your life so now I want to offer what has helped me with my own issues.

Glass. I discovered a few years ago that the average person can use glass to make our own beautiful creations. It comes in every color and mixture of colors you can imagine. Its amazingly easy to cut and then you get to lay it together however you wish or follow instructions for predesigned items.

Then comes the firing when your creation basically melts all those pieces into a solid piece. The thrill of opening the kiln is amazing. I like making flat things but a second firing with a mold will turn your piece into a bowl.

Zella, if this interests you - or any other readers - Google fused glass or glass fusing. Delphi is a sales outlet to check prices. There are usually local classes available where one can learn with others.

Ok, I've babbled long enough.

I understand your sadness. Please keep posting!

Hi, Zella!
I want to begin by giving you some big (((hugs))) You are so strong, even if you don't feel like it right now.

I haven't read the theater thread, but I can relate to your feelings. After becoming a Girl Scout Leader a few years ago, I quickly became the service unit director (in charge of the other area troops). At first, I had a co-director, but she quit fairly quickly leaving me to figure it out on my own. I did a pretty good job. Then, my small service unit merged with the bigger service unit this summer. I was the co-director of that unit, and planned on taking over when the current service unit director stepped down.

Fast forward to this February when I was called into Council. The person at Council that I worked with, and often did not see eye to eye with, told me how I was not a good fit as service unit director. How I was not a team player. She told me my services were no longer needed. For the first time ever, I was fired. From a volunteer position.

It stung. It was embarrassing. I can relate to your feelings. (((hugs)))

Oh Zella, I'm soo, so sorry for all of this !!!!!  I've been praying for you! 
Could you possibly have a phone session
with your counselor?   ((( hugs )))

Zella, I don't often have the right words of encouragement to give but I do wholeheartedly understand. Depression has me right now and I'm struggling too. I have this issue that keeps going round and round in my head right now and I cannot shake it off. Nothing is making me feel better right now so I completely understand. Hugs to you. I just keep thinking it will get better. It will eventually pass. I will work it out in my head.

Zella, theater people tend to be flakey. I am a professionally trained actress and singer and I can tell you from lots of experience that you can't count on anything in the theater. It's a day ending in Y, so they will cut you off. Please don't let this take you down the rabbit hole. You have lots of support and we're here to tell you that you are valuable and worthy.

I'm so sorry your friend did that. Sometimes people are too sheepish to stand up for what's right, and go with the leaders. I had a friend in high school do this to me. I remember how much it hurt. It happened again as an adult. Again it hurt so much. But you know what? They both realized their mistake and came back to apologize. One is now my best friend. The groups they "followed" eventually imploded because they were awful to begin with. From your story, I would not be surprised at all if the group eventually cuts ties with each other, and there's a new crowd and new opportunity. Maybe one day you can go back again.

In the meantime, let's talk hobbies! I know you have pysical limitations, but have you tried swimming? Getting my heart pumping for a good 20-30 mintutes relieves so much stress and worry for me. I feel whole and at peace. Maybe find something that gets you moving.

A new thing Inreally want to try is painting with watercolors. Create an instagram account if you don't already have one, and check out Cindy Lane art. I love watching her watercolor. Another thing I enjoy watching and trying is sugar cookies; I follow SeeetAmbs on instagram as well. She has videos of her decorating a cookie from start to finish. It's really fun to watch and later create. Maybr try those?

I saw you said you don't like scrapbooking too much because you think you're not good at it. Have you ever looked at sketches from places like Scrapbook Generation? I use their sketches often because it's the only way to effiecently scrapbook now that I have small kids.

One last suggestion...everyone has to eat, why not get really good at it!? Maybe cook your way through a French cookbook, or master some macarons, maybe perfect a croissant, or even delicious French bread! They say that's the highest rated favorite scent of all--fresh baked bread.

I hope things turn around sooner than later! Hugs Zella.

Sending you a big hot, humid hug from Florida. Don't worry, I didn't skip the deodorant. A couple of years ago, I found myself in a really dark place. My marriage was on shaky ground, DH was having to live alone for a year overseas for work, I had essentially been fired from my job (a first for me in my 40's!), and I was living 3000 miles away from my family and friends. Oh, and I had a teenage daughter who was having her own depression/ADHD issues. And one last thing which may sound trivial, I am from the South and therefore, I talk Southern. I had people mention it all the time and most loved it, but I just felt even further removed and different from the locals in California. It sucked.

I lived near the coast in California and on a whim one day went to the beach to look for sea glass. Found a few pieces, which a month or so later I determined were total junk (sharp, not frosty) and threw them back. From that day, I was HOOKED. Started looking online at which beaches were good for glass, trying new places, and started meeting other people out doing the same thing. Got to the point where I knew pretty much every single fisherman that would be out as well. Some mornings I was the ONLY human on the beach and it was amazing!

Over that year long period, I went to a beach nearly every day. We left and came back to Florida last June and I brought along a treasure trove of glass and other things, some great new friends, lasting memories, but most importantly, a much healed soul. I know you have said you live in or near Seattle so maybe this is something you could try. I really had some amazing experiences doing this and would be up before the crack of dawn because I was so excited I couldn't sleep. Maybe you can re-find some of your joy on the beach.

Here's an article with some good beaches in Washington State: traveltips.usatoday.com/washington-state-beaches-collect-beach-glass-60680.html