Update #3: Vent - I'm tired, so very tired

I have a hard time doing that myself. I don’t know if this will help you, but whenever I have to do something that I don’t want to do, I give it a time limit. Like I’m only going to weed to an hour, or I’m walking for 25 minutes. It’s silly, but it helps to get me out of the door.

I am so sorry that you are struggling right now and I am glad that you are going to reach out to a new therapist. I dont think I have any words of wisdom at the moment, but know that I am thinking about you and wishing you some peace.

I am sorry you are feeling overwhelmed. At least you feel safe to vent here and hopefully see that you are not alone in that.

Sending you a 20 second hug and then another one and another. Please feel free to yell and rant. Please know you are well loved by your family that lives with you as well as your family here.

I am so very sorry you are in such pain. I hope your psychiatrist has a just right therapist recommendation for you.

KelleeM and kelly8875 sending you guys full on 20 second hugs as well.

I have some of the same feelings and I've been chalking it up to perimenopause...perhaps part of it is your hormones?

I'm so sorry you are feeling so much. Did you decide if you felt safe to go back to the gym? You seemed like you really needed that. If not I'm sure the peas could give great suggestions on workouts to do at home. Come here anytime to talk to us.

I don’t have any advice. Just a big hug and a prayer for all of you. You’ve taught me so much about mental health and your openness makes me a better person. Thank you for that. You matter and what you do matters. Even the small stuff. But it’s ok to put boundaries around people. Including your adult kids. I wish you peace today and every day.

Prayers and hugs. 

Maybe Be now is the time to seek some help for yourself. You need some help coping and it’s ok to need help. 

Keep in in touch and let us know how you are doing. 

I'm so sorry to hear that you're struggling so much, sending you much love and warm hugs.

Like so many others, I've struggled with how to respond. I think so highly of you and words are grossly insufficient.

Please keep reaching out for support. You need it and we are happy to try to give back even a little of the light you bring to the board.

I've sent up a prayer for you and your family, and for everyone here in sucky situations. I also sent out good wishes into the ether for those who don't believe in prayer. I've got enough for everyone of all different kinds.

My twopennyworth of cold comfort for you, on top of everyone's words of wisdom?

I think that this time of year when the daylight reduces and the thought of the winter hangs over us, is what helps to bring us down temporarily. The first set of cloudy/cold/wet days that we have is a biologically instinctive push into hibernation mode. We all feel it, you and the children. After a few weeks we get used to it and get better able to cope mentally. But to start with, even though it happens every year, it's a bit of a shock to the system. It gets better. It always does.

Once your head has adjusted to the season change, a brisk walk in the crisp, chill, autumn air all bundled up in one of your beautiful shawls, followed by cosying up with crochet/winter projects and hot soup might be the therapy you need. We just have to get past that transition period first.

I don't know whether you're one of those who benefits from SAD meds or melatonin, but if so, maybe now is the time to get started.

I want to send you a big cuddle to tie you over until it all feels better.

I'm really sorry that you are struggling so much at the moment. I have no magic solution to offer I'm afraid - I wish I did but I would suggest that you really need to start putting your self first. It's a lot easier said than done when it involves our children but I hope you find some way to do so that will benefit you. I'm glad you are reaching out for a new therapist.
Sending lots of gentle hugs 

My heart is hurting for you right now. Your burden is great and you need loving arms around you.

I have no magic "fix" for you--at least no fix that is of this world. What I can offer is the love of your Heavenly Father. He does exist. He walks beside me, personally, every single day and I feel His presence always. That does not mean that I don't have heavy burdens, too, sometimes. But I never have to bear them alone and you don't have to either. He knows the cross you are carrying and He looks at you with tender pity and love. He is there to help.

I read a quote recently that meant the world to me and I hope it will lift you as well. It goes like this: "The Lord's care is over all His creatures. He loves them all, and makes no difference, except that He has the most tender pity for those who are called to bear life's heaviest burdens". Right now, that is you. You are clearly carrying heavy burdens. Know that you are loved infinitely. You have troubles--He has answers.

Perhaps you might find comfort in attending a church. Not necessarily a big one, but perhaps a small, Bible-based, non-denominational church for right now. But if that doesn't feel right, just take all this to our beautiful and loving God. You can't weary Him. He made you and He is looking at you with such love.

You will be added to my prayer list. I remember years ago when I was having a small crisis of faith, Jenjie sent me some wonderful verses from the Bible that helped so much. I will always love her for that. I hope you will find comfort and that strength and joy will return to you. Hugs.