Final Update to My heart is breaking.
May 31, 2024 18:30:25 GMT
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Post by malibou on May 31, 2024 18:30:25 GMT
My papa passed away on Monday surrounded by his 3 kids, 5 step kids and my mom. I became his primary caretaker the last week, along with my step sister and my brother. There was a lot of giggling while we tried to guess his needs, because he just couldn't really talk anymore, though not for lack of trying. The number of times he eye rolled us was huge! LOL At the end he rallied enough to ask me for permission to go, and I told him to please go, and went and got my mom and step siblings.
He definitely knew he was loved, which is what he wanted.
Thank you papa. The pleasure of knowing you has given me many memories to cherish. I love you dad of my heart!
You guys so rock!I could not be luckier than having you all in my universe. Thank you so much for your kind words, they give me something to keep reminding me that we peas have each others back through thick or thin, through joy and pain, through humour, through love, through friendship! Thank you.
Yesterday after I posted, ds23 asked to go to the library, as it's his place to clear his head. While we were there, and he was sitting and looking at an old book of maps, his vision suddenly got twisty on him. He called me over and was sweating profusely. He told me that this had happened two weeks ago while on the trail during his father son mountain biking trip. No one told me.😣 He did said that this one felt way worse. I called the Dr. to see about getting him in, and they told me to take him to Emergency right away. So, off we went. Fortunately, we were only a mile or so away. Unfortunately, he threw up the whole way, and a lot of it in his car.
We spent 8 hours there 😳. They did loads of tests, and nothing came back amiss. They do want fasting blood work done though. Hind sight tells me the distraction was a good thing as we were focused on him and not the awful news we received earlier. We did talk a lot about my dad, as ds and my dad have a special bond. He was the first grandchild to be born after they got married, and my dad could not/can not get enough of my son. 😍
My dad just returned from his last Dr. appointment. He has been battling CLL and Squamous cell cancer since the start of Covid. The 2 cancers are egging each other on, but can't be treated together, so the Dr goes back and forth with treatment. Earlier this year the squamous started going crazy and metastasized into his lymph nodes. They did radiation to try to keep it at bay, but it didn't work, as today they said it is everywhere and got there fast. They have put him on hospice.
This is not my biological father, nor the stepdad that raised me, he is however the dad I always wished for. The second we met we both knew we had met someone special and formed a very quick bond. He has been married to my mom for 26 years. I love him so much. He is 91, so I did know this was likely in my near future, but I just don't feel ready for this. My mom just isn't going to know what to do with herself.
Holy crap this hurts.
He definitely knew he was loved, which is what he wanted.
Thank you papa. The pleasure of knowing you has given me many memories to cherish. I love you dad of my heart!
You guys so rock!I could not be luckier than having you all in my universe. Thank you so much for your kind words, they give me something to keep reminding me that we peas have each others back through thick or thin, through joy and pain, through humour, through love, through friendship! Thank you.
Yesterday after I posted, ds23 asked to go to the library, as it's his place to clear his head. While we were there, and he was sitting and looking at an old book of maps, his vision suddenly got twisty on him. He called me over and was sweating profusely. He told me that this had happened two weeks ago while on the trail during his father son mountain biking trip. No one told me.😣 He did said that this one felt way worse. I called the Dr. to see about getting him in, and they told me to take him to Emergency right away. So, off we went. Fortunately, we were only a mile or so away. Unfortunately, he threw up the whole way, and a lot of it in his car.
We spent 8 hours there 😳. They did loads of tests, and nothing came back amiss. They do want fasting blood work done though. Hind sight tells me the distraction was a good thing as we were focused on him and not the awful news we received earlier. We did talk a lot about my dad, as ds and my dad have a special bond. He was the first grandchild to be born after they got married, and my dad could not/can not get enough of my son. 😍
My dad just returned from his last Dr. appointment. He has been battling CLL and Squamous cell cancer since the start of Covid. The 2 cancers are egging each other on, but can't be treated together, so the Dr goes back and forth with treatment. Earlier this year the squamous started going crazy and metastasized into his lymph nodes. They did radiation to try to keep it at bay, but it didn't work, as today they said it is everywhere and got there fast. They have put him on hospice.
This is not my biological father, nor the stepdad that raised me, he is however the dad I always wished for. The second we met we both knew we had met someone special and formed a very quick bond. He has been married to my mom for 26 years. I love him so much. He is 91, so I did know this was likely in my near future, but I just don't feel ready for this. My mom just isn't going to know what to do with herself.
Holy crap this hurts.
