Update #3: I GOT A JOB!!!

I’m so sorry...please take care of yourself.

(((Hugs))) and prayers!

She could sub every single day I bet. cindytred  Check in please...

I hope you're OK. Please call a hotline right now and talk to someone who WILL help you. This is the number for the suicide prevention hotline 1-800-273-8255

Have you considered tutoring? My SIL is a teacher who works from home as a tutor. She makes tons more money and says it's much more rewarding working one on one with kids. Downside is her hours coincide with her kids activities but she considers herself a working mom and makes it work.

ok, your update took a worrisome turn. i hope you realize that this minor delay in finding a job is not a reflection on who you are as a person. perhaps the right job just hasn't come along yet. be kinder to yourself.

I hope she checks in. I did send her a msg just to let her know she has support here.

cindytred , Know that you are so loved here and are a fabulous person.  And you are going to be fine!  Please do not mix drugs and alcohol. 

I can tell you from experience, that moving to a new area is hard enough emotionally, physically and spiritually. And add looking for a new job; it really compounds all of those feelings. But like others have said, Sign Up for a Temp Agency while you are interviewing for a job. Also see if you can be a Sub for different districts. 

 If you know how to meditate, try to do that for at least 10 minutes a day. If you like working out; try doing that for at least a half an hour a day.  Get out and meet your neighbors. It may open doors for you for an incredible job that may or may not be in teaching. 

 And remember we are here for you! 

Don’t be so hard on yourself. Teaching positions are very competitive. I’m sorry these interviews haven’t panned out for you yet. But don’t give up. Hopefully the right one for you will happen soon.

I know several teachers who relocated and did not get a job immediately. Very frustrating when you've left a teaching job and are just ready to get back in the classroom. They subbed at a few different schools and made connections in their new area. At my small school we often end up posting positions during the middle of the year. If you do not start the school year with a job, get your name in for subbing and take a part time job doing something else in addition to it. Honestly at this stage of the game for me, I would also see what other job options are out there. I don't feel that I have to be a teacher.

I get that you are disappointed and feeling very down right now. I also think it's ok to wallow in it for a few hours to get it out of your system. You're value in life is not determined by whether or not have a teaching job. I hope that you are reading these messages and will check back in with us. I'm worried about you.

You'll get there. You really have not been job hunting that long.

Think about the leap of faith you have taken by moving. You got this! You will find a job and build a great life for yourself.

I'm sorry the job fell through. Sucks that they didn't have the courtesy to notify you ahead of time and perhaps it's a blessing in disguise. Their lack of professionalism may very well be an indication as to just how crappy and disorganized that place is. Hoping something far better is just around the corner.

Does anyone know Cindy IRL - facebook maybe?

cindytred do you have your teaching license in Texas?  I know for a while there, Colorado was taking months to get new licenses processed and entered.

You have my deepest empathy.

I have been prepping/ job hunting since 2016, when I realized my husband’s kidneys were not going to last much longer. We have owned our own business for 30 years, but, without him to consult, there is no business for him to manage. that coupled with a shrinking client base, made it imperative I be ready to go soonest.

I have some college, but no degree and no high school diploma; I do have my GED from 30+ years ago. I was so lost. I’m a 50+ year old fat woman who hasn’t worked outside of our business for 30 years, I had no clue what I could do to make money. I know I’m good with bookkeeping, but am not professionally trained. I started taking online classes in Quickbooks and Accounting and Adminstrative Assistant areas. Even with all of these certifications, I couldn’t even get a foot in the door.

I did not get even 1 real job interview from the hundreds of applications I put in. Nothing. I got so down I could feel the depression whispering in my ear constantly. All I could do was try to cut expenses as much as possible and try to keep DH as healthy as possible. I’ve done well in both of those areas, I think, but my personal feelings of worth were nonexistent.

I have a friend who was constantly complaining about the minutiae her job entailed. She hated doing the repetitive detail oriented chores that frequently came her way. When she’d complain, I’d tell her her company should hire someone like me who likes doing that type of work. One day she called me and said that they were looking for someone to do exactly that and would I be interested. It turned out to be a contract for a defined number of hours at a good rate of pay and i can work from home on my own equipment. We did a business to business contract, so I’m bringing in money for the company for a change. Sounds great, right?

Though they had promised her this wouldn’t happen, my friend ended up being my trainer and supervisor. She kept assuming I knew how to do the things she had spent the past 6 months learning and she had no idea why I didn’t pick them up the first time she half explained them. She didn’t mean to, but every time I asked a question about how a readily available program did something, she’d make me feel really stupid for asking. One day she exploded and said I can’t BELIEVE you didn’t Google that instead of asking me, but she didn’t give me a chance to Google it - she stood over me while I tried to do that and told me about 6 other things I needed to do.I asked her to leave my house and go work from her house. She could text or email me her directions. She left and did cool down, but she insisted that they remove her as my supervisor.

That was a true low point. The stress at that point was so bad, I developed muscle spasms in my upper back that feel like I’m being stabbed with a hot poker. Add in the stress of suddenly working 8 hours a day when you haven’t in years AND having to keep up with the insane demands of my DH’s kidney friendly diet? All while knowing this is the best job you could hope to find?

Yeah, I get how low you’’re feeling. Nobody wants me and I don’t know how to make it better.

But, it is getting better.

My friend’s boss became my direct supervisor and she thinks I’m doing a great job. She has me teaching my friend’s seniors how to determine when to send someone my way. My little throw away writing course as part of my Administrative Assistant certification has been a HUGE help in writing the number and type of emails I write each day. My 30+ years managing a computer consulting company ar also starting to come in to play as I’ve been tasked with validating certain steps that IT has to follow. My friend has become my biggest cheerleader again and finally admitted that she wasn’t sure that she had told me the same thing each time I asked how something was done. I’ve been asked if they get more hours for my contract, am I interested?

I am.

Hold on! It will get better. Maybe you won’t get a full time gig right away, but you might find another way to teach that you like better. When I homeschooled, I paid a fortune to retired teachers to tutor my kids in areas I was afraid I might not have covered well. I bought hundreds of teacher prepared units and worksheets. My Dd started tutoring straight out of college and made really good money thru one of the national tutoring companies.

Feel free to pm. I really do empathize with you.

Marcy