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Post by fredfreddy44 on Aug 14, 2018 2:28:28 GMT
My 2nd child, but 1st one off to college leaves in 10 days for Chico State. According to Grown and Flown, I should be crying my guts out all over the place and it should be "literally" the most traumatic day of my life. I'm thinking "no..."
He is older, just turned 19. We have gone shopping together. His lack of enthusiasm is irritating, but has always been the quiet type. He is see his grandparents for 2 days and backpacking with HS friends for 3 days so that leaves 5 days for him to get his crap together and there is a lot of crap left to get together.
I was happy when I went to college.
I asked on our family last week trip: "Are you ready?"...."yeah pretty much" (after he met his future roommate in Chico on our way to Lake Almanor.)
I am excited, so excited for him. It is an amazing time. How could we be sad?
UPDATE: It is done. The morning went so smoothly. He was in his room and organized by 10am. The volunteers ran a great program and we only waited in the car line for 40 minutes until drop off. Dh and Calvin got his stuff up and I went and parked the car across campus. His room is a great size right in the middle of campus and he has a roommate who seems a lot like him. Plus his family lives in town and the mom said he could come over any time.
I got emotional twice. When I saw he had packed and displayed the stuffed Minecraft creeper I had made for him when he was 12 and during final goodbyes when he said "You two are the best parents I ever could have had, thanks."
And life goes on for all. I had my morning coffee from my new "Chico State Mom" mug and am off to work while my high schooler was off to school before I even woke up.
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Post by 950nancy on Aug 14, 2018 2:36:08 GMT
I think it is possible to be very happy for someone and still sad for yourself.
When I was a freshman, my mom and roommate's mom dropped us off for the final time. They were both smiles and laughing and happy for us. Several weeks later, my RA saw a picture of my mom in my room and looked really sad. I asked her why and she said, "This was the lady I saw crying so hard in the elevator." My mom was my biggest cheerleader and best friend. I never really gave it much thought how much different her life was going to be with all three kids out of the house. I went to college and was married and moved February of my senior year. She passed away when I was 23. I get why parents are sad. You certainly don't have to be, but it is certainly okay to mourn a precious chapter of your life.
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Post by Really Red on Aug 14, 2018 2:38:47 GMT
![:)](//storage.proboards.com/5645536/images/MNrJDkDuSwqIMVw33MdD.jpg) My youngest is off to college. He is a super new 18yo and filled with complete certainty that he already knows everything and will be fine. ![](http://i1168.photobucket.com/albums/r481/2peasrefugees/Smilies/roflmao.gif) He has NO crap together. I made him sit down with me last weekend and discuss and make lists, but he is supremely unconcerned. He doesn't want to share one thing with me, but every time I ask him anything remotely complicated (move in time or roommate info)*, he has the answer. Today, he bought a book. You could have knocked me over with a feather. He was SO proud of himself, too, as he got a good deal. I did not think I'd be sad, but since my life has significantly changed in the past 1.5 months, I am feeling sadder. He is my link to sanity right now. I want it ALL for him, though, and know he has to get out of here. I cannot make him into what he is not, but I often see glimpses of what I hope for him, and I hope that college will let it all out. *not complicated for girls, but more complicated for boys. Particularly since mine had to change his. And did!
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Post by hop2 on Aug 14, 2018 2:41:12 GMT
I had harder issue about crying with my first kid at every single milestone. Going all the way back to first day of K I cried with #1 and whoo hoo'd with #2. That carried thru to college. While I didn't out right cry when we dropped #1 off i was teary eyed and sniffly. Not exactly sad but I knew I would miss her. We are pretty close. With #2 i was like ok your stuffs in the room, have a good time don't be stupid. I guess it might help that #2 is only 45 mins away and i can see him if I want to. ( and he can call mom if he needs to apparently LOL )
You may never be sad. It's not required. Enjoy the good feelings.
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Post by Really Red on Aug 14, 2018 2:44:18 GMT
Oh 950nancy Oh my heavens. That is a beautiful story about your mom. Your RA gave you a glimpse inside your mom that you wouldn't have otherwise been aware of. It truly brought tears to my eyes. I loved my parents, but was so happy to go away and I went 500 miles away. I was barely 17 and I still remember wishing my whole family would just LEAVE and when they did I thought I couldn't breathe anymore. We all had those hall phones at the time and I waited and waited and WAITED for my mom to call, but my stupid older brother told her that it would NOT be wise to call me before one week had passed. I had to wait for her to call (no long distance) and I was miserable. Years later, my very stoic and very reserved German mother would tell me that was one of the worst weeks of her life. That really meant a lot to me. I'm so glad you got to hear it from your RA. What a gift. I am sorry about your mama. 23 is just a baby.
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Post by mom26 on Aug 14, 2018 2:44:42 GMT
I did not expect to cry when my daughter moved states away with her fiance. After all, I was happy for the both of them. What was there to cry about? However, when it came time to give that last hug and watch her getting into the moving truck and drive away? I ended up full-on ugly crying. ![:'(](//storage.proboards.com/forum/images/smiley/cry.png) You just never know how or when the sads may hit you when your kid takes that big, momentous step. And if you don't cry, that's okay too.
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Post by quiltz on Aug 14, 2018 2:44:42 GMT
My 2nd child, but 1st one off to college leaves in 10 days for Chico State. According to Grown and Flown, I should be crying my guts out all over the place and it should be "literally" the most traumatic day of my life. I'm thinking "no..." He is older, just turned 19. We have gone shopping together. His lack of enthusiasm is irritating, but has always been the quiet type. He is see his grandparents for 2 days and backpacking with HS friends for 3 days so that leaves 5 days for him to get his crap together and there is a lot of crap left to get together. I was happy when I went to college. I asked on our family last week trip: "Are you ready?"...."yeah pretty much" (after he met his future roommate in Chico on our way to Lake Almanor.) I am excited, so excited for him. It is an amazing time. How could we be sad? I really love your attitude. My first went from Ontario to British Columbia. We both flew to BC, stayed with friends for a few days & purchased some of the stuff that he needed that year (pillow, sleeping bag, other bulky stuff) & dropped him off at school. I had a great dinner with him the evening before he left. Talked about the important (call mom every Sunday) and the not-so-important stuff. He was a man and not a child. I gave him roots and wings. He soared in the sky. So proud of him.
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Post by mom on Aug 14, 2018 2:53:38 GMT
My 19 year old son moves out Saturday. I am not sad yet. I am excited (and nervous!) for him. I admit, though, I will probably cry the whole way home after leaving him. I am not really sad, though. I am proud. He has worked so hard to get where he is. He is pledging so I am nervous about that. He tends to be pretty quiet and this is a big step for him.
Ds has packed some things but not near everything. We've bought all the things and right now, they are thrown around the den, in little piles. I suspect we will have a disagreement about how many t-shirts he wants to take. I bet there are 40 in his pile. LOL His university requires him to live on campus until he has 30 hours from the school (he has 40 that he is transferring in but those wont count for housing) and he is in for a shock on how small his dorm actually will be. He knows its going to be tight, but I don't think he really 'knows'. LOL
I was 19 when I had him and a single mom. We have been to hell and back together. When he was a few months old, I started college and would read to him from my college text books while I rocked him. Him finding his way has been a long, hard path and he is truly excited about what he is about to do. All I ever wanted for him is to be happy. And I can say he truly is and my heart could burst.
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Post by hop2 on Aug 14, 2018 3:01:55 GMT
My 19 year old son moves out Saturday. I am not sad yet. I am excited (and nervous!) for him. I admit, though, I will probably cry the whole way home after leaving him. I am not really sad, though. I am proud. He has worked so hard to get where he is. He is pledging so I am nervous about that. He tends to be pretty quiet and this is a big step for him. Ds has packed some things but not near everything. We've bought all the things and right now, they are thrown around the den, in little piles. I suspect we will have a disagreement about how many t-shirts he wants to take. I bet there are 40 in his pile. LOL His university requires him to live on campus until he has 30 hours from the school (he has 40 that he is transferring in but those wont count for housing) and he is in for a shock on how small his dorm actually will be. He knows its going to be tight, but I don't think he really 'knows'. LOL I was 19 when I had him and a single mom. We have been to hell and back together. When he was a few months old, I started college and would read to him from my college text books while I rocked him. Him finding his way has been a long, hard path and he is truly excited about what he is about to do. All I ever wanted for him is to be happy. And I can say he truly is and my heart could burst. See that's it I'm not always sad when i cry over things like that. It's more like i have a whole jumble of mixed emotions and I cry because i can't sort them out or because there are too many of them.
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Post by mom on Aug 14, 2018 3:05:32 GMT
My 19 year old son moves out Saturday. I am not sad yet. I am excited (and nervous!) for him. I admit, though, I will probably cry the whole way home after leaving him. I am not really sad, though. I am proud. He has worked so hard to get where he is. He is pledging so I am nervous about that. He tends to be pretty quiet and this is a big step for him. Ds has packed some things but not near everything. We've bought all the things and right now, they are thrown around the den, in little piles. I suspect we will have a disagreement about how many t-shirts he wants to take. I bet there are 40 in his pile. LOL His university requires him to live on campus until he has 30 hours from the school (he has 40 that he is transferring in but those wont count for housing) and he is in for a shock on how small his dorm actually will be. He knows its going to be tight, but I don't think he really 'knows'. LOL I was 19 when I had him and a single mom. We have been to hell and back together. When he was a few months old, I started college and would read to him from my college text books while I rocked him. Him finding his way has been a long, hard path and he is truly excited about what he is about to do. All I ever wanted for him is to be happy. And I can say he truly is and my heart could burst. See that's it I'm not always sad when i cry over things like that. It's more like i have a whole jumble of mixed emotions and I cry because i can't sort them out or because there are too many of them. Yes! So many emotions! I should add - I will absolutely do my best to keep it all together in front of him. I don't want to burden (or embarrass!) him with my tears. But all bets are off once we get in the car. FWIW, I know my DH will cry too. He has raised my oldest since he was 4. He isn't is biological dad. but man, he is his dad in every other way.
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Post by sues on Aug 14, 2018 3:12:11 GMT
I am not a crier (especially not in front of anyone)- but big goodbyes get to me. My dd's move-in day is Friday. I'm a little worried about keeping myself together. I guess that day will be busy enough to distract. The next morning when we head home will be a killer though. It won't be a matter of 'sad' though - it will be the big change in our family and all-over-the-place emotions. Change is good, but it comes with a whole new set of worries, and sometimes I just want to dig my heels in and resist. ![:P](//storage.proboards.com/5645536/images/OrTI4SBmZ2ZYSFv6ag4f.jpg) And then- if I can manage to keep myself together, God help me if I see someone else losing it. THAT will do me in for sure.
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Post by peano on Aug 14, 2018 3:41:23 GMT
We leave to drop off DS a week from Thursday. I am working on a quilt for him for his dorm bed and I am putting off finishing it, because finishing it represents the change and finality of everything--DS moving away, our empty nest. I will cry the day we drop him off, but I imagine it will be worse when we come home and the house will be silent. I am excited for him to move on to the next chapter of his life, but the next few months are going to be tough.
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Post by scrapmaven on Aug 14, 2018 4:01:09 GMT
I was sad that my ds went off to college, but I was happy for him. I didn't cry, but I'm not a crier, anyway. However, it was quite an adjustment. Soon, you'll get used to him being gone and you'll settle into a new normal. It takes time. Though I must admit I'm loving the fact that he's home for the summer.
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Post by nlwilkins on Aug 14, 2018 5:14:22 GMT
When I left to go to college, I was 18 and was moving from Guam to Arizona. A long, long way from home. In those days airline fare was very expensive and there was no way I could ever visit home again. At the last moment (about a week before departure), Mother took me aside and asked if she bought me a car would I stay and continue on at the University of Guam. She hated to see me go even though she had sent my two older siblings off to college without any regret. But, I don't think she cried. Mother never cried, ever.
Of course, I was eager to go. Adventure awaited in the States. There was not much for me there at home. But, once I got settled, I started missing Guam and really wished I had stayed.
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Post by Deleted on Aug 14, 2018 11:42:26 GMT
Well, I did not refer to Grown and Flown and I have done pretty well. The only part that has been a little rough was going into his room yesterday to see what needs to be done to convert the space to an office. My DH is taking his absence harder than I am. We still have two at home, so it'll be the last one that I think will have us in tears.
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Post by Deleted on Aug 14, 2018 11:59:48 GMT
I read a magazine article about this recently (I think in Good Housekeeping) most people were happy for their children to be going out into the world, of course, there was some sadness about a stage of life ending but one woman was totally incapacitated by grief at her daughter going to university. She spent weeks and weeks crying, she went out for a run and ended up lying in a field sobbing for hours. She ended up having to have counselling about her 'loss'.
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Post by peabay on Aug 14, 2018 12:02:04 GMT
I could not wait to go to college. I practically pushed my mother's car out of the dorm parking lot so I could get started after moving in.
I've sent 3 kids to college so far - 2 cried when we left, one pushed us out the door. It's a very exciting time for them; I think one can be both excited for them and sad at the transition from child to young adult.
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Post by stargazer on Aug 14, 2018 12:14:59 GMT
I didn’t cry when we left ds1 (then 19) last September. I knew I wouldn’t cry around him but I kind of surprised myself by not crying in the car. I was (& still am) really proud of him & excited for him & I knew he was ready for it but we are very close & I thought it would be harder than it was to leave him. I was so confident that he was where he needed to be & was ready for it though that it tempered my sadness. I did miss him but he called home regularly & we texted etc & it was so exciting to hear about when he was learning & doing that I found it impossible to be sad.
DH later told me that if I’d cried, he would have too but because I was holding it together he (just about) managed it too. That surprised me!
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Post by Deleted on Aug 14, 2018 12:32:29 GMT
I was also happy for my DD when we dropped her off freshman year. There was still tears when we said goodbye, both me and then her. But not sad tears. happy tears. (At least for me)
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Post by Sarah*H on Aug 14, 2018 12:41:13 GMT
I cried reading this thread! ![:'(](//storage.proboards.com/forum/images/smiley/cry.png) So many of my friends are going through this right now and some are stoic/excited and others are having a hard time. My son is about to start his senior year and honestly, I have cried at every "last" milestone already and I expect it to continue throughout the upcoming school year. It's not that I'm not happy/excited/thrilled about what is to come but damn, I'm sad this part of our life is coming to an end. His 3 best friends are all heading off to college over the next couple weeks and I'm sad for him that those relationships are going to change and wonder how his senior will be without his gang. DS spent most of this summer at college intensives so I already know how our home is without him - still filled with love and happiness but it's a lot quieter and there is a lot less silliness and laughter. By this time next summer, I may be nothing but a blubbering ball of ever present tears, lol! ETA: My mom recently confessed that she cried every day for the first year I was gone. And then she cried every day for the last part of my senior year because she realized I was never really moving home again. But I knew none of that, she was just a great support for me and I hope I can carry that on for my son. Whatever sadness I feel doesn't need to be his burden!
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Post by Deleted on Aug 14, 2018 13:09:15 GMT
My 19 year old son moves out Saturday. I am not sad yet. I am excited (and nervous!) for him. I admit, though, I will probably cry the whole way home after leaving him. I am not really sad, though. I am proud. He has worked so hard to get where he is. He is pledging so I am nervous about that. He tends to be pretty quiet and this is a big step for him. Ds has packed some things but not near everything. We've bought all the things and right now, they are thrown around the den, in little piles. I suspect we will have a disagreement about how many t-shirts he wants to take. I bet there are 40 in his pile. LOL His university requires him to live on campus until he has 30 hours from the school (he has 40 that he is transferring in but those wont count for housing) and he is in for a shock on how small his dorm actually will be. He knows its going to be tight, but I don't think he really 'knows'. LOL I was 19 when I had him and a single mom. We have been to hell and back together. When he was a few months old, I started college and would read to him from my college text books while I rocked him. Him finding his way has been a long, hard path and he is truly excited about what he is about to do. All I ever wanted for him is to be happy. And I can say he truly is and my heart could burst. See that's it I'm not always sad when i cry over things like that. It's more like i have a whole jumble of mixed emotions and I cry because i can't sort them out or because there are too many of them. I agree. Crying does not always mean sad for me. Crying can mean, mad, proud, happy, scared, frustrated, embarrassed, and more. I HATE that tears come so easy for me. When my daughter moves out in 67 days (count down to her wedding) and when I cry it will be because I am so happy and thrilled for her and also because I will sincerely miss her. She is pretty awesome!
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Post by buddysmom on Aug 14, 2018 13:22:16 GMT
My youngest started college in 2012. It was so fun to go with her to Target, etc etc and get all sorts of stuff for her new life.
Well, last Saturday I went to the giant Supertarget that is a few miles from a giant University (plus school just started this week for the county).
I went there to look at sheets for our bedroom.
It was sad seeing all the college students with and without parents shopping for all the dorm things, school supplies. It seems it was just yesterday that we did it but it has already been six years.
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Post by Deleted on Aug 14, 2018 13:53:09 GMT
It wasn't me that cried when our first left home for college the first year. DS packed up, got in his car and sat in the driveway for 15 minutes. DH had to go back out (after our good-byes) and tell him he was going to be ok, just do it. He did, and he excelled. The first girl was harder. She was just getting over an eating disorder--and she was a little younger than ds had been too. She was just 17. We had to take her down, as her car wouldn't hold "all her stuff." Or maybe she wanted us to--I can't remember. It was a real "trust in the Lord" moment for me though, because I still wanted to keep my eye on her to make sure she was going to be ok. She was. Third child--another girl was 8 years later--and we knew she was ready. She attended college not far from home, so I got to go visit for lunch at times. 4th child was 5 years later--and she attended the college not far from home--but didn't have a car, so we had to take her there. That one was our last one, and yes, that was pretty emotional. By then, the 3rd one was back home, and working, so we didn't have to have that empty next for a few more years!! the 4th one got married about 3 months after graduating from college, so that last 3 months was really busy getting ready for the wedding. My son came home from college and was with us for about a year before he got married, the 1st daughter stayed in her college town, got a job, and eventually married. (about 2 years after graduation) the third child was home with a job about2 years before she got married.
But you know what? dh and I have really enjoyed our time together. We didn't have much time before kids, so this has been a real blessing to us. Today, the grandkids will be here--and talk about blessings!!
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Post by kate on Aug 14, 2018 14:43:03 GMT
My first goes a week from tomorrow. Months ago, he bought tickets for a concert here at the end of Sept - it helps me a lot that I know I'll see him again so soon. He'll be about 4 hours away, so he can easily come home for long weekends if he wants to. He's an intense kid, but he's also so fundamentally cheerful that he really is a ray of sunshine in a house full of teenagers and a perimenopausal mom! I will miss him a lot. I am super excited for him, though. I think he's going to the perfect college for him, and I think he's going to make the most of the many, many opportunities there. I'll be back here for some hand-holding at the end of next week... ![](http://i1168.photobucket.com/albums/r481/2peasrefugees/Smilies/tongue.jpg.gif)
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Post by brina on Aug 14, 2018 15:23:34 GMT
I am dropping two off this weekend for their freshman year. I am so excited of them. People keep asking me if I have been crying. The answer is no. I am starting to wonder if I am the freak.
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Post by Zee on Aug 14, 2018 15:39:52 GMT
DD age 23 has moved to CO whole we have moved to GA. I miss her, but it's time. No tears because I'm too busy trying to figure out how to get her 20 yo brother to move in with her ![:D](//storage.proboards.com/forum/images/smiley/grin.png)
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Post by JustCallMeMommy on Aug 14, 2018 15:43:40 GMT
I am another crying reading the thread, and I have 3 more years! At this point, I expect DD will probably stay close, but she could end up far away. It has just been the two of us for a while.
I remember when I left for college. It was all busy leading up to the day and even moving in - no one had time to process anything. At lunch that day, my mom looked at me and we BOTH burst into tears.
We all deal with change differently. I think college is a weird one, because it is a new beginning for everyone.
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Post by Deleted on Aug 14, 2018 16:47:50 GMT
I am dropping two off this weekend for their freshman year. I am so excited of them. People keep asking me if I have been crying. The answer is no. I am starting to wonder if I am the freak. That's how I was - even when mine went to Kindergarten. I think moms of multiples are eager for the break! ![](http://i1168.photobucket.com/albums/r481/2peasrefugees/Smilies/cheer.jpg.gif)
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Post by Susie_Homemaker on Aug 14, 2018 16:49:31 GMT
With my first DD 4 years ago I cried in the car the whole way home (an hour and a half). It was sad to have the first one leave the nest. We just took our other DD last Friday and I managed not to cry. It helped that we got her moved in then went to a meeting for parents of girls pledging. That was a nice way to cut the emotion of the good-bye moment. I miss her like crazy and I'm sad for me but very excited for her. The oldest has been home for the summer and will leave again this coming weekend. After that we will be official first time empty nesters. I think for a little while while I adjust to our new home I'll be ![](http://i1168.photobucket.com/albums/r481/2peasrefugees/Smilies/sad.jpg.gif) but I am looking forward to it just being DH and I. He's excited now and has all kinds of plans that involve me walking around in nothing but a small t-shirt. ![](http://i1168.photobucket.com/albums/r481/2peasrefugees/Smilies/laugh.jpg.gif)
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Post by 950nancy on Aug 14, 2018 17:16:03 GMT
Well, I did not refer to Grown and Flown and I have done pretty well. The only part that has been a little rough was going into his room yesterday to see what needs to be done to convert the space to an office. My DH is taking his absence harder than I am. We still have two at home, so it'll be the last one that I think will have us in tears. I updated my son's room thinking he would love being away from home. Nope. He moved back for his sophomore year. He loves his new bed and furniture.
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