sharlag
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I like my artsy with a little bit of fartsy.
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Post by sharlag on Jan 24, 2019 22:59:48 GMT
Please consider your intrinsic value. The example I learned was of a $100 bill. Even if it's ripped and crumbled and dirty, it's still a $100 bill. It still has value. I don't doubt my value. I doubt my functionality.
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used2scrap
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Post by used2scrap on Jan 24, 2019 23:28:57 GMT
I have been resiliently fighting to survive life since I was a small child. The last 10 years have shattered me. I will say however, here in the broken unfixable pieces, I have a newfound sense of peace in no longer trying to put the pieces back together again.
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angeljade
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Post by angeljade on Jan 24, 2019 23:53:38 GMT
Fractured, yeah, utterly. In various places. But somehow I keep picking up the wee broken bits and stuffing them back in the cracks. The busy work of that keeps me going, I think, or possibly just keeps me avoiding dealing with what caused the fractures in the first place.
I do see a wonderful therapist who is helping me immensely with working through these fractures. It's definitely WORK, but it's healing. Slow healing, but healing.
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MizIndependent
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Quit your bullpoop.
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Post by MizIndependent on Jan 24, 2019 23:59:02 GMT
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Post by lesserknownpea on Jan 25, 2019 2:26:14 GMT
I have been resiliently fighting to survive life since I was a small child. The last 10 years have shattered me. I will say however, here in the broken unfixable pieces, I have a newfound sense of peace in no longer trying to put the pieces back together again. Well said. And that’s where I’m at too. It became exhausting trying to be “whole”. Trying to perform to some arbitrary standard I set for myself.
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zella
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Jul 7, 2014 19:36:30 GMT
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Post by zella on Jan 25, 2019 3:27:21 GMT
Yes. Absolutely. I have been horribly damaged by my mother, my ex, and by illness. I try to hold myself together. Sometimes I do better than others. I also have depression and anxiety, that I would have had anyway. So yes, I do consider myself broken. But damn, I'm trying to make myself whole.
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pridemom
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Post by pridemom on Jan 26, 2019 19:27:36 GMT
No. I have worked hard and trusted in my faith to become whole. My childhood was abusive and I have health struggles, but I am so much more than those things. It’s made me resilient and an advocate.
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azredhead
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Post by azredhead on Jan 26, 2019 19:47:54 GMT
There are some amazing responses to a difficult ? word.
Physically absolutley. From born with physical condtions that even experts in those fields can't explain to much more. Ive shared just that on here as well as lifes relationship sttruggles.
Mentally and everything i wouldn't say broken. I don't ike the term as my mother thought she broken beyound repair. I didn't have the words to help her and I carry that guilt with me since she died 2yrs ago. So I wouldn't say broken I would say RAW RAW in every sense when nothing makes sense. As also having to struggle to survive on my own like so many of you have said - it is a day to day process.
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msliz
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Jun 26, 2014 21:32:34 GMT
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Post by msliz on Jan 26, 2019 22:16:32 GMT
I'm strong, but there are days when I'm absolutely broken. Those are the days when I'm feeling hopeless and helpless, when DD's pain is too much for her to bear.
My DD has chronic illnesses and has had a migraine from November 2012 that's never left her for a moment. I don't think I'll ever know what it's like to feel happy and care free again. I smile and I laugh, and it's genuine, but it's incomplete. How could I feel content and whole while my child is suffering? There's a huge piece of me that's just gone missing.
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Post by ameslou on Jan 27, 2019 0:38:01 GMT
Imperfect? Yes Broken? No A fighter? Yes Mistake maker? Yes
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Post by lesserknownpea on Jan 27, 2019 0:55:50 GMT
I'm strong, but there are days when I'm absolutely broken. Those are the days when I'm feeling hopeless and helpless, when DD's pain is too much for her to bear. My DD has chronic illnesses and has had a migraine from November 2012 that's never left her for a moment. I don't think I'll ever know what it's like to feel happy and care free again. I smile and I laugh, and it's genuine, but it's incomplete. How could I feel content and whole while my child is suffering? There's a huge piece of me that's just gone missing. ((((Hugs))))
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Post by papercrafteradvocate on Jan 27, 2019 2:36:41 GMT
I’m better than I was 10 months ago, but there are days that I don’t feel anything but broken.
Luckily those days are few and far between anymore.
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Elsabelle
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Jun 26, 2014 2:04:55 GMT
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Post by Elsabelle on Jan 27, 2019 2:40:34 GMT
I'm strong, but there are days when I'm absolutely broken. Those are the days when I'm feeling hopeless and helpless, when DD's pain is too much for her to bear. My DD has chronic illnesses and has had a migraine from November 2012 that's never left her for a moment. I don't think I'll ever know what it's like to feel happy and care free again. I smile and I laugh, and it's genuine, but it's incomplete. How could I feel content and whole while my child is suffering? There's a huge piece of me that's just gone missing. I’m so sorry.
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Post by Deleted on Jan 27, 2019 14:58:18 GMT
Losing my father has left me with a hole in my life that can’t be filled. He was the one person in this world who loved me unconditionally. My father died in 1994 and not a day has gone by that I don't miss him and feel the absolute void that left in my life. I understand your statement about the unconditional love -- I felt that and more. I am so grateful for the childhood he gave me and the many years of his guidance that I benefited from. Someone told me once, when I was reflected on the ache I felt at missing him, to think about if 'he' had lost 'me' first. She said, "Your father never would have survived that. He would have died of grief shortly after losing you. I am certain his heart would literally have burst with it." And believe it or not, I took some comfort in her words. His passing before me was the natural order of things. I would have loved more time with him... once more day even. But death is inevitable. So now I make a conscious effort to focus on the time and experience I did have with him instead of what I missed since then. I find some peace in that. I share this because maybe you will, too. Reading things like this makes some of us "broken" feel emotional. Yes, I am comparing your lovely father to the hand I was dealt. I can not imagine having a father, mother, grandparent, even step parent that gave a crap about me at all. I wonder what good would have come of my life had I been "blessed" with love.
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Post by Spongemom Scrappants on Jan 27, 2019 15:28:12 GMT
Reading things like this makes some of us "broken" feel emotional. That's always a challenge in posting here. You are never just responding to 'one,' you are responding to 'all.' My words were not intended to hurt, but to help. I certainly understand though how they are received through the filter of one's own experience. Your experience must have been painful and for that I am sorry. If I could wave a magic wand, every child would have a happy childhood, but that's surely not the world we live in.
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Post by Deleted on Jan 27, 2019 23:23:23 GMT
Reading things like this makes some of us "broken" feel emotional. That's always a challenge in posting here. You are never just responding to 'one,' you are responding to 'all.' My words were not intended to hurt, but to help. I certainly understand though how they are received through the filter of one's own experience. Your experience must have been painful and for that I am sorry. If I could wave a magic wand, every child would have a happy childhood, but that's surely not the world we live in. oh, I totally know you would (I have been here long enough to know you are one of the nicest).. It is only human for people like me to feel emotional ... jealous...angry...sad... when we hear about someone's good fortune. Yet, at the same time, I am happy for those that have "hit the parent lotto". You deserve it!!!!! we all do.
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