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Pearl Clutcher
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Post by rodeomom on Apr 8, 2020 15:50:40 GMT
Not good, not good at all.
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Post by FuzzyMutt on Apr 8, 2020 15:57:20 GMT
I'm doing ok. Monday was pretty rough, but I think I've just finally resigned to the belief that there will be no way in which I can help to make this better.
I was able to hands on help during a 2 week power out in umpstate NY. I was able to hands on help after Hurricane Andrew, and I was able to hands on help after 9/11. Things that I felt were meaningful, useful and actually made a difference.
This time though, I am in an "essential role" which truly isn't essential. There are alot of things in the news that frustrate me, and worry me (career and response wise) where steps are being taken way outside of CMS, TJC, and AAMI guidelines. It would be different it if were things like lack of PPE where there is unfortunately little that could have been done. These are things that folks in charge of planning should have been engaging health care support for expertise and support.
While I complain about that, I'm thankful for the opportunity to be "Essential" and get out of the house every day. Work with my co-workers (that I love) safely, and work for a company in which I take immense pride.
My son is 18, and lives at home. To give you an idea of that situation, Taco Bell was giving away free tacos last night, as many free ones as people in the car. Of course he and a ton of friends carpooled up there, got their free tacos and hung out in the parking lot. His logic? He works with those guys so it's nothing they haven't already given him. I'm just tired of stressing about it. I wipe down pretty much all the surfaces in the house several times a day, wipe switches and switch plates, handles, knobs, wash the couch blankets and pillows every other day with bleach in the water (those will need to be replaced lol) and just feel like I'm on high alert in my house.
That said, I'm quite certain that I have been exposed at some point, and believe that my boyfriend may have had it in Jan. Even so, we are social distancing from one another and it really really really is not fun. I see the "x # of years ago" stuff on Facebook. We should be going to concerts, group rides with our friends, great restaurants, just chilling at home together on the deck with coffee. But, no. We aren't and it sucks. I have no underlying conditions and am very healthy, my boyfriend has mild concerns, and we figure we are probably fine, but don't want to take the chance of being deemed more "worthy" of medical care than an older, sicker person. Here in MA, we are likely to have a big surge of sick people, and I'm terrified of it.
To date, I personally know (no physical contact with any of them in 2020) 14 people that have tested positive, with varying degrees of illness. None have been hospitalized, and those that are still sick are weathering it well at home. All of them are younger than 50. My daughter is in CO, another hard hit state and works in a specialist surgeons office in Denver. They've had several staff members test positive. Due to discontinuing elective surgeries, they have laid off the office. I am extremely thankful for that!!
Be safe everyone!
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Anita
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Post by Anita on Apr 8, 2020 15:58:42 GMT
I just feel so in limbo. Right now I am truly thankful that our income has not been disrupted. I am working from home. DH is working from home, and even putting in a lot of overtime. My DD is getting through college classes online. I exercise daily, and I'm eating well. I just feel so adrift. I'm sorry so many peas are struggling.
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Post by scrapcat on Apr 8, 2020 16:10:43 GMT
Sorry to hear so many are struggling, but as we can see, it is effecting many people, so you are not alone.
For the most part, I am ok. I have days that are more tough, mostly just worrying about other people. But very fortunate for the most part to be comfortable and fine. I feel bad and guilty for the suffering I see elsewhere. That is hard. I've only been to the store twice, and each time the night leading up to it I can't sleep and have a lot of anxiety. This last time was better because I knew the drill and there were even more practices put in place to ensure social distancing. Also most people wore masks. I am not afraid of getting the virus, I am afraid of spreading it to more vulnerable people.
My Uncle does have it and is being treated in the hospital, but he is actually doing ok. My poor cousin had to self isolate at his dad's house with no internet, cable, clothes, etc. His roommates helped get him situated, but it's stressful waiting to hear if he gets it.
Whoever mentioned something about working more, yes! Not so much actively working all the time, but constantly checking in, being available, constantly checking email. I'm finding a better rhythm now, but the first few days (weeks?) were a bit crazy. And then seeing people post on instagram how they are getting so much done, like big cleaning projects, etc...I'm like ugh really?!
The industry I am part of governing is out of commission and having a lot of layoffs. We don't know if it will trickle to us. That's worrying.
But I still feel like most of my complaints are minuscule compared to others. Just really taking it one day at time, working on breathing exercises and trying to enjoy the sunshine when it's out. We have constant discussions about "how long can this go on for?" it's hard to fathom.
On a really petty note, I miss watching sports! Especially playoff hockey. I don't know how the leagues will all pick up after this?! It's such a weird thing to experience.
I truly wish all of you peace and good health & safety for you & your families. I've enjoyed all the information I've received here thru this, it has been helpful.
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Post by crimsoncat05 on Apr 8, 2020 16:12:54 GMT
I'm not sure how much worse I might be doing if I didn't have my DH-- I feel for people who don't have a partner to be with during this experience... just someone *there* physically, close enough to touch, to talk to... BIG (((hugs))) to people going thru this on their own. (at the same time, he was firmly in the "it's a Democratic hoax" camp for a LONG time, so I reeeeeaaaally want to tell him "SEE?!? I TOLD YOU IT WAS REAL!!!" Isn't that horrible?!? But I won't.)
I am not sleeping well, at all. I used to be able to fall asleep at the drop of a hat, and I could sleep for 10 hours, easy. Now, it takes me forever to fall asleep, I wake up at least 2 or 3 times a night, and I am having some CRAZY stress-induced dreams.
I've been working mainly from home for 2 1/2 weeks now, and I'm starting to get stir-crazy from no *real* interaction with coworkers... the dogs and cats are NOT the same as human interaction... nor is instant-messaging the same as getting up from my desk, walking to the breakroom, etc. and talking with my coworkers in person.
And I freakin' HATE having to cook a meal every damn night!!! I have NEVER been good at coming up with meal ideas, and I don't like having to start now!
Also, why is it MY responsibility to go shopping? I haven't seen TP at the store for at least the past MONTH... yet my DH says 'maybe you should go really early in the morning' as if I'm not actually clocked in and WORKING while I'm at home. DUDE- you can leave work for a few minutes to go to the grocery store, too, can't you?!? your work is closer to the store than our house is!!
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Post by gar on Apr 8, 2020 16:13:48 GMT
It tough isn’t it! I’m sorry some of you are having such a really hard time 😕 I’m mostly ok. It’s just me and Dh at home and thankfully we have a great relationship and enjoy each other’s company - I sincerely hope that doesn’t change!! I am concerned about my parents - Mum has Alzheimer’s and dad is isolating with her and I can only imagine how challenging that is for him 😕 She gets quite restless and a bit argumentative most afternoons and mostly her conversations only make sense to her unfortunately. She seems quite happy most of the time but Dad is pretty lonely despite the fact that she’s there physically 😔 I have some degree of health anxiety and although I am ok 90% of the time Dh has an underlying condition and that plays on my mind even though we’re being very sensible about staying home. As someone else said those thoughts tend to crowd in at night. lainey - so glad you have your Dh there 😊
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Post by fruitysuet on Apr 8, 2020 16:17:59 GMT
I'm not ok. My soontobeex is having an affair, but doesn't think we need to separate, so I'm doing everything with the lawyer. I'm trying to keep it fair, but I'm about at the end where I'm going to change the paperwork to everything I want, and he can get his own lawyer and figure it out himself. I understand completely. My STBX is exactly the same; almost three years now. Before self isolation I could cope as there were only two nights and one day he stayed at home and I could avoid him by staying in my room. I told him to go self isolate with her but he won't (or whether she won't have him, don't know).
The tension in the house is unbearable.
Smack me, but my essential purchase was a tv for my bedroom; I only sat in the lounge for two nights and I wanted to stab him!
I hope you are coping better than me.
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Post by scrapcat on Apr 8, 2020 16:22:10 GMT
I’m not ok. There, I said it. My kids aren’t doing ok. I’ve always felt that my kids were flourishing and now it’s like I’m watching them wither on the vine. I’m seriously questioning whether it’s even worth living if we have to live this way much longer. There’s no point. I feel like I had planned the perfect life and now it’s been ripped away from me. I’m angry and sad about all the amazing things we’ve missed. I die a little inside every time I have to tell my kids some other event was cancelled. I’ll probably have to tell them soon that our Disney trip is cancelled and it will be the thing that breaks them completely. I am fully in the let’s just go back to our lives and whatever happens, happens camp. Please hang in there. I know it's hard to see, but this is not permanent. It may be a while, but I think there will be a solution and things will slowly get back to normal. Hopefully you will be able to reschedule your Disney trip, I'm sure Disney will be good in getting people back. Do you have other family support or someone you can talk to IRL for support? Def reach out.
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Post by fruitysuet on Apr 8, 2020 16:22:39 GMT
We are doing well. Ds definitely gained some maturity while away at college and that has made things easy and fun. He is very willing to help out and doesn't eye roll us when we ask things of him. That's a win to me. What is hanging us up is our parents. Dh dad hasn't been declining over the past year. Nothing medical really, just a life coming to an end. He's 94. Well, he passed away yesterday, peacefully in his sleep. I'm glad we had asked them to take care of the logistics of this years ago. Everything was prepaid and they came and took care of everything. Just so hard not being there to help my mil. This is the first of Ds grand parents to go. At the same time, my sister's mil, who is like a bonus grandparent to Ds, is also actively dying. She is also 94. She stopped eating and drinking the same day as my fil, so it is certainly any time now. She has been so awesome to my ds. She took a shine to him when he was a toddler and always treated him as though he were one of hers. My dad is battling a head full of squamous cell cancer. Since we've been on lockdown he has had a very big surgery on his head to remove the spots. When they got in there, they ended up removing a bunch of lymph nodes and found that it was super aggressive. Almost everyday there is a new spot coming up. He has had one infusion and goes for another next week. But the doctors don't seem very optimistic. We are seeing a lot of new quirky things going on. I am afraid I won't get to see him before he too dies. My heart is breaking. He is 87. We are lucky we've had them all so long, and not one of our parents had any on going health problems. They are just coming to the end. Coming to an end when we can't get to them. Thank you for listening. It's feeling a bit overwhelming right now. More than it should be because of the lockdown. Oh malibou I am so sorry, that sounds a tremendous amount of emotional turmoil all at one time. I can't imagine.
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Post by Deleted on Apr 8, 2020 16:24:51 GMT
I’m not ok. There, I said it. My kids aren’t doing ok. I’ve always felt that my kids were flourishing and now it’s like I’m watching them wither on the vine. I’m seriously questioning whether it’s even worth living if we have to live this way much longer. There’s no point. I feel like I had planned the perfect life and now it’s been ripped away from me. I’m angry and sad about all the amazing things we’ve missed. I die a little inside every time I have to tell my kids some other event was cancelled. I’ll probably have to tell them soon that our Disney trip is cancelled and it will be the thing that breaks them completely. I am fully in the let’s just go back to our lives and whatever happens, happens camp. I didn't want to read and not respond but everything I start to type seems wholly inadequate, I'm so sorry you feel like this. I'll offer you a hug and let you know that you're in my thoughts even though I know that won't be helpful.
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Post by christine58 on Apr 8, 2020 16:28:03 GMT
Good days and bad....I miss my dad so so very much but am thankful he was not dying during this. I cannot even imagine not spending the last 8 days of his life with him every single day. He would have died immediately I think if he had been alone...grandkids and friends and other relatives would not have been able to say goodbye. God how I miss him...the healthy him.
I think because we have not been able to bury his ashes during this has not helped me at all. I miss my friends, I miss my nieces and nephews and I will miss the birth of a new great niece or nephew any day. I cry every.single. day. I am not sleeping well at all....I thank God that my mom is next door and we do see each other daily. Have since the beginning.
Tired of the constant hand slapping and judgement here. There good moments at times but they are outweighed by the bad. I try to grasp onto just a little glimmer of hope every day but then it gets squashed here so I am limiting what threads I read/comment on. My block list has grown.
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Post by scrapsotime on Apr 8, 2020 16:39:03 GMT
I was mostly ok until yesterday. Not sure now.
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Post by gar on Apr 8, 2020 16:49:10 GMT
I’m not ok. There, I said it. My kids aren’t doing ok. I’ve always felt that my kids were flourishing and now it’s like I’m watching them wither on the vine. I’m seriously questioning whether it’s even worth living if we have to live this way much longer. There’s no point. I feel like I had planned the perfect life and now it’s been ripped away from me. I’m angry and sad about all the amazing things we’ve missed. I die a little inside every time I have to tell my kids some other event was cancelled. I’ll probably have to tell them soon that our Disney trip is cancelled and it will be the thing that breaks them completely. I am fully in the let’s just go back to our lives and whatever happens, happens camp. Try not to feel so hopeless - children are incredibly resilient and yours seem to have had a very stimulating and varied childhood which will stand them in good stead. Things are very different certainly , but they’re not being neglected or suffering anything terrible...life is just more mundane for now. They will take their cue from you so try and hide your disappointment and they will cope, I’m positive, and you can reschedule all those things for better day which will come.
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Post by snoopy on Apr 8, 2020 17:19:04 GMT
I am struggling, but not to the degree that many others are. I am a housewife and DH works for a major manufacturer here in the U.S. I am an introvert by nature, so isolation does not bother me, but having DH at home all day, every day is a bit challenging. His company started out with a 2 week closure that has now been extended indefinitely. For the first time in our lives, he’s having to claim unemployment. This is new territory for us, and feels very nerve-wracking. I made some face masks and delivered some to my parents house. It was very strange to stand in their front yard and talk from a distance, not being able to hug them or go inside their home.
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RedSquirrelUK
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Post by RedSquirrelUK on Apr 8, 2020 17:19:27 GMT
I just want to send everyone a big hug. If I've liked your post, it isn't because I "like" what you've said, it's because I've read it and understand. I have people in our community grumbling about our medical facilities and our pharmacies. They don't seem to get that all the normal, regular illnesses are still happening AS WELL AS the new virus. And all the normal shittiness that we're experiencing as part of regular life (break-ups, unfaithfulness, age and infirmity, teen angst, anxiety, domestic violence, addiction, death) is still happening as well. This is all horrid and we're being overloaded. Here is where we can off-load the straw before it breaks the camel's back. Don't let it break you, girls! You can smack this in the face, get up and keep going. You can! Thank you lainey for starting this thread.
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Post by Really Red on Apr 8, 2020 17:55:37 GMT
lainey - thank you for creating this thread. I feel anxious and worried about my kids who can't come home because of my immuno-compromised child. Reading about all of you wonderful peas who are trucking on and managing through this horror gives me hope and faith, even when it's hard for you. @kendramage I cannot even imagine being separated from my parents at this difficult time (mine are gone). ((hugs)) to you malibou You poor pumpkin. It's too much. TXMary TONS of hugs for you and your mama. I wish you could be with her and know it must be so devastating for you both. DEX I hope your scrapping is helping you find some joy. I did an album and it really brought me so many happy memories. needmysanity Our HR head shares how she feels with us (staff) and it is so helpful. It sucks to be laid off, but knowing that your CFO is devastated makes your staff feel like you are one with them. Such a horrific thing, but sometimes knowing how truly bad one feels is good. Our CEO laughs through some of his calls and it just pisses me off. I am so sorry for all you're going through. myshelly - you are not going to tell your kids something is cancelled without giving them hope, okay? You are going to tell them it is postponed until they can be safe. You let them know it will give you more time to plan and figure out things. You will all make it through this and be great on the other side. They need you to tell them this. You've got US to tell you that, okay? Come here when you feel bad. You all are incredible people! You are so resilient even when you don't want to be. It's almost the weekend (more than half the week has gone!) and Passover is tomorrow and Easter is Sunday and we will get through this mess. It's okay to be sad and cry and be upset. Just know that there is an end and we have each other.
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Post by Susie_Homemaker on Apr 8, 2020 17:58:35 GMT
And I freakin' HATE having to cook a meal every damn night!!! I have NEVER been good at coming up with meal ideas, and I don't like having to start now! Yes, I'm with you on that! It's a very minor thing in the grand scheme and I'm sure you're thankful and all that but just wanted to say 'I hear ya!'.
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Post by Deleted on Apr 8, 2020 18:03:55 GMT
It sucks right now. My sons with autism are not coping well. Younger son just doesn’t understand and asks a hundred + times per day - literally- when the Coronavirus will be over and various things will be open again. Each day involves praying that it won’t get physically violent here. My only positive is that I have managed to sew and get out quite a few face masks. It helps me to feel like I am helping others. I wish I could be there to help. I actually was planning to semi surprise you , as I was getting ready to pack up a bunch of my daughter’s things and drive them over there! Next year in Cleveland! 😆
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Post by elaine on Apr 8, 2020 18:12:42 GMT
It sucks right now. My sons with autism are not coping well. Younger son just doesn’t understand and asks a hundred + times per day - literally- when the Coronavirus will be over and various things will be open again. Each day involves praying that it won’t get physically violent here. My only positive is that I have managed to sew and get out quite a few face masks. It helps me to feel like I am helping others. I wish I could be there to help. I actually was planning to semi surprise you , as I was getting ready to pack up a bunch of my daughter’s things and drive them over there! Next year in Cleveland! 😆 I would so LOVE to meet you IRL! That would be awesome. I know Columbus much better than Cleveland (6 years at OSU). I’m game for Ohio!
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Post by Deleted on Apr 8, 2020 18:13:30 GMT
My son is having a hard time with the neighbor passing away. They were friends. He wants to help but there is nothing he can do.
If my husband doesn’t get out of my house fir an hour at least, no courtbin the country will convict me for what I might do.
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Post by Deleted on Apr 8, 2020 18:20:12 GMT
elainenever have been to Columbus, I think my cousin lives there tho. Never understood the next year in Israel remark until recently and since all my Passover’s were in Cleveland, next year in Cleveland makes more sense. Now I realize that isn’t where you have your special dinner, but why and who you have it with.
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Post by Zee on Apr 8, 2020 18:20:24 GMT
I am actually quite well. I think having a job and something to focus on besides myself is a big part of that.
The virus does not worry me. It might if I had children or immunocompromised people at home, but I don't.
I got a callback from the radiologist about my routine breast MRI. There are "some areas of concern" and i will have to drive into Atlanta for a biopsy next week. I don't expect it will be anything but I'm also not brushing it off, as much as I'd like to. Now what? My post-cancer implants grew cancer? Lol whatever. We shall see.
I'm helping pilot a new program at work this week in one of the ICUs and that's kind of interesting though I prefer patient care. I did throw on gloves this morning and help clean up the largest liquid stool on the largest intubated bedbound fellow on the unit, bless him. He's nice and clean now but it literally took us 25 minutes. I felt so useful! 😁
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used2scrap
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Post by used2scrap on Apr 8, 2020 19:30:08 GMT
Have been doing ok on the days I can get some sleep; last night though my fever spiked again and lungs started burning/constructing again...it’s been weeks. Somewhat better today, but exhausted. I shower and get dressed and have to rest. Walk up the stairs; have to rest.
There’s just so much; watching family members struggle with too much information/hours to work (FEMA/Military). Frustrated with family who think this is nothing, family members who think this is a vast left wing yet global conspiracy to take down Donald Trump and hurt churches. I just can’t even.
Worrying about my mom who is in her 70s and lives alone, starting to have some mental decline issues, and is pissed I told her not to come over for Easter. It’s so hard to be states away from my dad, he has underlying health issues (stroke, high blood pressure) and is staying home but is a hoarder so I don’t know what exactly his living conditions are since my grandma died and he isn't staying at her house anymore.
Worried for family members in hard hit areas that have the virus; worried for family member with pancreatic cancer who just had surgery. Worried for family member who lost her mom last fall and can’t be with her dad as he grieves and has Parkinson’s disease. So sad watching multiple friends and families’ teens struggle with losing their senior year and sports and “normal” teen life.
Dd is a Jr but is raging she can’t see her friends. She sleeps all day and is up all night, but getting her AP classes and school done. Just found out she took $200 out of her savings and ordered a snake online. I just can’t even. No idea if she will be able to see her specialist referral in May.
Annoyed the dishwasher broke, waited weeks for parts, nope wrong one. No one wants to be part of a functioning household and wash dishes.
Ex is at least fairly stable mentally/emotionally right now, but he insists on overdoing it trying to work and has burn pit scarred lungs and has a hard time breathing on a good day and is still struggling to breathe recovering from his illness. He can’t get his weekly knee shots so he can barely walk. We were just finally in a good place co parenting and with visitation and it’s all up in the air now.
Oldest at least seems to be doing well with online university classes, and fingers crossed will be home from isolation for Easter...if I’m not still coughing and having this up and down fever.
As for me? The last 10 years have been a head down, one foot in front of other struggle, and 2020 is no different. It is what it is, I’m cancelling the trips, thankful beyond anything there’s finally a solid roof over our heads, food on the table and money to pay the most pressing bills. My heart breaks for those out of work, those working essential, and those struggling to work in strange circumstances with the anxiety of the unknown.
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Post by malibou on Apr 8, 2020 19:51:28 GMT
rodeomom PM me if you need an ear. HUGS!
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Post by templatequeen on Apr 8, 2020 19:51:31 GMT
I'm struggling. I was loving it at first. But now I'm stressed. I filed unemployment and its not showing the extra 600.00. I am supposed to call in 2 weeks and certify so hopefully by then it will show up.
I don't want to cook Easter dinner Sunday, I'd rather just order in. I'm tired of cooking.
I'm getting bored and restless. I've tried to complete a puzzle for 2 weeks now and just can't.
I am not sleeping, I used to be able to nap no problem. Now nope.
But I am healthy and safe so I feel like a jerk for complaining.
I just wish unemployment would be ok, I mean we will get the extra 600 I'm sure it just adds to my worry, what if we dont...
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rodeomom
Pearl Clutcher
Refupee # 380 "I don't have to run fast, I just have to run faster than you."
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Post by rodeomom on Apr 8, 2020 19:56:56 GMT
rodeomom PM me if you need an ear. HUGS! I appreciate that, thank you.
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Post by FuzzyMutt on Apr 8, 2020 19:58:06 GMT
Have been doing ok on the days I can get some sleep; last night though my fever spiked again and lungs started burning/constructing again...it’s been weeks. Somewhat better today, but exhausted. I shower and get dressed and have to rest. Walk up the stairs; have to rest. There’s just so much; watching family members struggle with too much information/hours to work (FEMA/Military). Frustrated with family who think this is nothing, family members who think this is a vast left wing yet global conspiracy to take down Donald Trump and hurt churches. I just can’t even. Worrying about my mom who is in her 70s and lives alone, starting to have some mental decline issues, and is pissed I told her not to come over for Easter. It’s so hard to be states away from my dad, he has underlying health issues (stroke, high blood pressure) and is staying home but is a hoarder so I don’t know what exactly his living conditions are since my grandma died and he isn't staying at her house anymore. Worried for family members in hard hit areas that have the virus; worried for family member with pancreatic cancer who just had surgery. Worried for family member who lost her mom last fall and can’t be with her dad as he grieves and has Parkinson’s disease. So sad watching multiple friends and families’ teens struggle with losing their senior year and sports and “normal” teen life. Dd is a Jr but is raging she can’t see her friends. She sleeps all day and is up all night, but getting her AP classes and school done. Just found out she took $200 out of her savings and ordered a snake online. I just can’t even. No idea if she will be able to see her specialist referral in May. Annoyed the dishwasher broke, waited weeks for parts, nope wrong one. No one wants to be part of a functioning household and wash dishes. Ex is at least fairly stable mentally/emotionally right now, but he insists on overdoing it trying to work and has burn pit scarred lungs and has a hard time breathing on a good day and is still struggling to breathe recovering from his illness. He can’t get his weekly knee shots so he can barely walk. We were just finally in a good place co parenting and with visitation and it’s all up in the air now. Oldest at least seems to be doing well with online university classes, and fingers crossed will be home from isolation for Easter...if I’m not still coughing and having this up and down fever. As for me? The last 10 years have been a head down, one foot in front of other struggle, and 2020 is no different. It is what it is, I’m cancelling the trips, thankful beyond anything there’s finally a solid roof over our heads, food on the table and money to pay the most pressing bills. My heart breaks for those out of work, those working essential, and those struggling to work in strange circumstances with the anxiety of the unknown. I'm so very sorry. My tiny world has so many fewer moving parts, I can't imagine how exhausting all this would be, even if you were feeling well. I hope you are able to focus on getting well and the rest sort of falls as it will. Best wishes!
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Post by 950nancy on Apr 8, 2020 20:00:05 GMT
I am doing okay. I still work from home so that situation hasn't changed and that really helps. I really hate that my kids have essential jobs, but know if they weren't working, that would be an added stress. I do wish we were all under the same roof. Not seeing them is hard. Thankful my husband is here with me. My neighbors across the street (3) are all living alone in their houses. Thankful I have a lot of food. Thankful we can still get out and go for walks. Thankful my neighbor sewed us some masks because she is very sweet. Thankful for the money coming in. My husband was furloughed from one job, but he still has another teaching and his retirement check.
There are things I worry about that I cannot control. My son was supposed to have surgery the day after the quarantine was announced and now has to wait until who knows when. His doctor doesn't think the growth is cancerous, but you know, as a mom...
I have an optimistic mind that this will be over on the 26th of April. It is the date our governor has set. I like that he is adding two weeks at a time instead of a date two months into the future. I think it will probably be close to June, but am counting on Bill Gates and others like him who have been preparing for this for years.
I am pretty fed up with the current President. I do think about what could have been prevented if he hadn't been such a narcissist. But I don't dwell on it.
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Post by brandy327 on Apr 8, 2020 20:14:23 GMT
I'm sorry so many of us are struggling.
99% of the time, I'm good. I'm a sahm so being at home is my norm. But dh is working from home and I have 3 teenagers here.
The only complaint I have is that 1 of the teenagers is making us miserable. Logically she knows why we can't go anywhere but she's a teenager so the world revolves around her. She acts like these stay at home rules are ours... not the govt's rules...like we're punishing her. We've done things to try to take the sting out- play family games, go for walks, bought a couple of new outdoor games for when the weather is good. But nothing makes her happy. And she just doesn't seem to give a shit that I'm immunocompromised and things probably wouldn't go well if I got the virus.
I try to cut her some slack. I know it's hard for them. But damn... it mentally drains me that I feel like I need to be ready to fight every time she wanders out here.
Lots of good thoughts to you all.
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Post by tara595 on Apr 8, 2020 21:07:06 GMT
I had a terrible day. DH works, so I'm home all day with the kids -3.5 and 5.5. All I did all day was yell. DD cut her own this morning while i was in the bathroom. It was awful. I had work I needed to do, the kids wouldn't listen at all and the weather was crappy so they couldn't go outside.
Around 1, I put DS on ABC mouse, DD watched Shrek and I just lied down to reset. DH just got home. The weather is better so we're going for a walk and then it's leftovers. This all just too much. Every night when I go to sleep, I can't believe I have to do this another day. I love my job, I love working and have never wanted to be a SAHM. And now I am times a million. And then of course, there's the guilt that goes with it. Because I should feel lucky that I have a secure job and that at I'm not putting myself in danger like so many out there are.
That felt good to write. Thanks for letting me vent without any judgement (I hope).
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